My friends' opinions towards me is honest but not justified. I kept thinking they just want me to feel better about myself and they would try anything to make me feel better. But NO! For whatever the cause, I believe they have been honest to me. It's like someone asking me if their dress looks nice but to me, it does but knowing it looks horrible to the rest, I still chose to say 'yes it does' cos anything that anyone I like wear looks nice on them. But little do I know that it's not gonna make them have a good night and be criticized by the people around them for the bad dress....
I was happy today while playing monopoly online, I was talking to another player telling him/her about Heroes cos I was watching it as well. I was asking him if 'Office' was good cos he's a big fan of Office. I was asking him which season and which episode it had reached til and when I found out it was in season 5, I was like nooo. But then, I told him that I could do it and I have done that with 'lost'. And then, for some reason he went 'sorry I'm not a nerd like you but I just love the show'. Now, at that instant, all I could do was smile.
To be honest, I've lost my identity and I've lost my ways and rules of doing things. Thanks to the surroundings, I get influenced easily and I thought I was able to adapt but at times I just morph into someone that they would call one of 'them' but only til I get really bored of it. I guess it rocks that someone thinks I'm a nerd cos having studied in CSE for five years, I feel really empty and kinda out of the whole gang cos I don't play video games religiously or thought the dot social was cool or just be more accomodative to those cool nerds in there. I'm a bit of a convo wrecker and it takes time for people to converse with me or really get to know me.
As known as this healthy bitch who always go for majority levels and try to be diplomatic with the social crowd, I think it's time I set my own rules and let people walk in the 'Hein' flow. I guess this blog entry made me realize I'm happy with myself....
At the moment, I AM a nerd who takes things lightly and who is a big fan of happiness and who likes simple little pleasurable things in life like gossip girls episodes, mutual quickie sex meet ups with 'friends' or cute things people wear. I believe that there is no boundary or lines around me and that I can cross any lines or any borders at any point..
Your job is to find out if you wanna ride with me.. or stay.. :D
I was happy today while playing monopoly online, I was talking to another player telling him/her about Heroes cos I was watching it as well. I was asking him if 'Office' was good cos he's a big fan of Office. I was asking him which season and which episode it had reached til and when I found out it was in season 5, I was like nooo. But then, I told him that I could do it and I have done that with 'lost'. And then, for some reason he went 'sorry I'm not a nerd like you but I just love the show'. Now, at that instant, all I could do was smile.
To be honest, I've lost my identity and I've lost my ways and rules of doing things. Thanks to the surroundings, I get influenced easily and I thought I was able to adapt but at times I just morph into someone that they would call one of 'them' but only til I get really bored of it. I guess it rocks that someone thinks I'm a nerd cos having studied in CSE for five years, I feel really empty and kinda out of the whole gang cos I don't play video games religiously or thought the dot social was cool or just be more accomodative to those cool nerds in there. I'm a bit of a convo wrecker and it takes time for people to converse with me or really get to know me.
As known as this healthy bitch who always go for majority levels and try to be diplomatic with the social crowd, I think it's time I set my own rules and let people walk in the 'Hein' flow. I guess this blog entry made me realize I'm happy with myself....
At the moment, I AM a nerd who takes things lightly and who is a big fan of happiness and who likes simple little pleasurable things in life like gossip girls episodes, mutual quickie sex meet ups with 'friends' or cute things people wear. I believe that there is no boundary or lines around me and that I can cross any lines or any borders at any point..
Your job is to find out if you wanna ride with me.. or stay.. :D
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