The run down is always tough, especially when you don’t really notice that it’s happening but instead you just think you’re way in the normal condition and it’s just what’s around you that is affecting your emotions.
wifeyD went through two emails of me telling him what he ought to know about things between us. I apologized for that today, knowing I was too honest with him. You see, people always blame things on alcohol, pms or other similar things that they could, which can be relied on when it comes to mood swings. I did blame it on the aftereffect of what I took. However, I also believe that what we do or say do not really depend on what we take, but it’s totally dependent on our true self.
I told wifeyD that everything I’ve said was the truth but knowing I had chemicals in my system, I wasn’t able to think it through or decide which words are right for what time. So, yeah, I did feel guilty for the things I’ve done to wifeyD .
Surprisingly, I got an email back with three things that made me smile. Care, worry and the word “love”. I guess I’ve been totally assuming things so wrong about me and wifeyD after all. I guess after being there for someone for a couple of times when they’re in need and not really appreciated, I think it’s kinda cool to be accepted for the negative side of me while they’re there for me. It’s just the moment for the time being….. the moment will come and when it does, it can be the start of something big and really good.. for a change.
wifeyD went through two emails of me telling him what he ought to know about things between us. I apologized for that today, knowing I was too honest with him. You see, people always blame things on alcohol, pms or other similar things that they could, which can be relied on when it comes to mood swings. I did blame it on the aftereffect of what I took. However, I also believe that what we do or say do not really depend on what we take, but it’s totally dependent on our true self.
I told wifeyD that everything I’ve said was the truth but knowing I had chemicals in my system, I wasn’t able to think it through or decide which words are right for what time. So, yeah, I did feel guilty for the things I’ve done to wifeyD .
Surprisingly, I got an email back with three things that made me smile. Care, worry and the word “love”. I guess I’ve been totally assuming things so wrong about me and wifeyD after all. I guess after being there for someone for a couple of times when they’re in need and not really appreciated, I think it’s kinda cool to be accepted for the negative side of me while they’re there for me. It’s just the moment for the time being….. the moment will come and when it does, it can be the start of something big and really good.. for a change.
Listening to: Justin Timberlake – Sexyback (pokerface Remix)
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