The friend

Life is pretty bad when it comes to ‘timing’. It’s weird when a friend knows too much about you and it gets weirder when both of you are walking the same road. It’s also a bit weird when a friend is someone you care about and don’t wanna hurt. It’s so hard when the only way to get closed to a friend is the approach that you have believed in the past, which have been pretty much burnt down by the person you loved. It’s so hard when you want to believe in a lot of things you’re stopping yourself from believing. It’s also difficult when you promised yourself that you will never make the same mistake again.

Is this a test? If so, what am I doing now feeling this way? Despite the fact that I don’t feel lost anymore on my own, why am I faced with more tests? Haven’t I had enough of tests? The last one burnt me deep and I’m a bit too exhausted from the pain it has caused.

I hope the friend stays true. I hope the friend stays happy. I hope the friend knows that I do believe in good endings.