It's funny how Craig and I have a bit of a balance when it comes to security. Just last month, Craig had been hard to deal with to be honest. We fought like two times a week. I stressed him out. No matter how much I think I'm trying to make things right, there would always be a tinge of insecurity he would feel. Easily jealous and annoyingly sensitive, my boyfriend was a piece of work. The funny thing was the fact that the aftermath of all mother of arguements would be such a stress despite its 'feel good' once it's resolved. So, you got me explaining things and apologizing when needed genuinely and working things out; that made Craig happy as much as me proud to have been there for him.
For some reason, Craig changed overnight. I forgot which day it was but thanx to the teleport thingy in Burma, the internet connection has been quite cruel. I couldn't get online, my farmville plants rot and most of the people on facebook was happy due to the lack of abundant status changes every hour, which bombarded their 'home' pages with notifications. Worst of all, my chats to Craig on gtalk became a fickle light switch.
Like a light bulb during a storm or an indecisive bisexual, my 'status' green light on gtalk flickered from green to grey and vice versa. Now, normally whenever I get offline without a brb or an explanation, Craig would be either mad or just unsure about what's going on. He would chuck a tantrum or just question whenever I come back online. Worst of all, he would overlook the situation and what started from a slap in the face would become a bloody assault in the face. Not this time anymore. For some reason, Craig has been calm these days. Has he given up on me? Was he testing me? Was he being sarcastic? Is he holding onto it just for the sake of it?
Questions rose and then I realized I have become the last month Craig. By questioning myself with doubt had turned me into one insecure boyfriend, with the worst case being an annoying retard.
I raised it up. I mean, I only have him to share this with and he's the only person who could help me out with a solution. Surprisingly, he's become the last month Hein, if not any better, a calmer one. So, we traded roles. He saw this as equality. He thinks we're equal now whereas I think I've become the sensitive little prick while he becomes little Buddha.
Come to think of it again, it's a good feeling that he's there for me. So Ma Thi was right, you COMPLIMENT in a relationship and my BOSS is right about the relationship being 'work' or a 'process'.
For some reason, Craig changed overnight. I forgot which day it was but thanx to the teleport thingy in Burma, the internet connection has been quite cruel. I couldn't get online, my farmville plants rot and most of the people on facebook was happy due to the lack of abundant status changes every hour, which bombarded their 'home' pages with notifications. Worst of all, my chats to Craig on gtalk became a fickle light switch.
Like a light bulb during a storm or an indecisive bisexual, my 'status' green light on gtalk flickered from green to grey and vice versa. Now, normally whenever I get offline without a brb or an explanation, Craig would be either mad or just unsure about what's going on. He would chuck a tantrum or just question whenever I come back online. Worst of all, he would overlook the situation and what started from a slap in the face would become a bloody assault in the face. Not this time anymore. For some reason, Craig has been calm these days. Has he given up on me? Was he testing me? Was he being sarcastic? Is he holding onto it just for the sake of it?
Questions rose and then I realized I have become the last month Craig. By questioning myself with doubt had turned me into one insecure boyfriend, with the worst case being an annoying retard.
I raised it up. I mean, I only have him to share this with and he's the only person who could help me out with a solution. Surprisingly, he's become the last month Hein, if not any better, a calmer one. So, we traded roles. He saw this as equality. He thinks we're equal now whereas I think I've become the sensitive little prick while he becomes little Buddha.
Come to think of it again, it's a good feeling that he's there for me. So Ma Thi was right, you COMPLIMENT in a relationship and my BOSS is right about the relationship being 'work' or a 'process'.
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