Fascination.. it's just the way we feel

You know how in life when you're shown a lot of stuffs, nothing fascinates you anymore? From my room at work, you could see the office lawn and anyone who's coming in or out. So, from this trip to Ngwe Saung, where we had a few minutes stop at Pathein, a place well know for its flat umbrellas production in Burma, a lot of my colleagues bought umbreallas. I'm not sure who's bought these but there were four huge ass umbrellas in the lawn this morning.

It reminds me of those movie where some asteroids fell onto earth and make this huge ass dent on the earth surface and before you know it, you got yourself a huge crowded area, with people gazing at the piece of asteroid that's been dented on the surface of the earth. I could see my colleagues walking in and out one by one to check out those four huge ass umbrellas. They've seen them and they were the one who was there when these things were bought. Pfft.. all I could do was smirk as they pass in front of my office room one by one. I mean, have you not seen four huge ass umbrellas on the office lawn??

Fascinations... it's dead. I've been reading my blogs from a year before or so and I've noticed how much of a boring person I've become. It's not like I've seen all of what life has to offer me or it's not like I'm not happy but I guess I'm running out of mojo to make things at least, fun.

January was supposed to be me coming out of the shell, hatching out of an egg or just plainly shedding my skin off like a huge ass anaconda. It kinda semi worked but I kept falling back into the hole pit of the same beat played. It's not cool. I guess I just feel like I haven't achieved anything and the fact that this will be my last month at work does NOT help either. I just feel so low lately.

I do hope February would fascinate me. I know as much as all of us have fates or destiny or paths in our lives, I think that they won't happen unless we work on things. So, I'mma gon give February all I've got to make sure I'll be able to pull things off but it's up to fate or destiny to work with me. They say we have to work up in order to reach the fate that we're destined to live by. Well, I'm gonna be working shit load and it's up to fate to give me a path in life.