Today is the last day I'm gonna stay at mom's place, given I'm gonna be just stopping by her place here and there after today. Office reopens and mom has to leave on Thursday. It's sad actually. I feel like I'm the one who kept seeing people come in and out of my surroundings these days.
I saw a lot of my friends come back and they went back to wherever they hailed from. Now, it's my mom and pretty soon it's gonna be my sisterlike friend, Ma Thi, and my boyfriend, Craig. I find it hard to answer questions like "enjoying life there, Hein?" To be honest, I am only cos naturally I would do anything to keep myself happy and as self conscious as I can be, I would never do anything to make myself look bad. Deep inside, I wanna get back to a life outta here. Given I got myself thinking about Craig a lot these days, it even sucks more that I am not in Sydney. Things are beginning to circulate here in Burma.
As jobs go, my contract ends at the end of February but then again, if there's another project coming my way, I would love to work with it since humanitarian jobs are based on yearly experiences and references. I have some good number of people who thinks I am capable in this field but I've only been on board for six months. So, I'm pretty clueless about what's gonna happen to me anywhere. I feel lost to be honest but I would love to continue working in this field.
I feel so lost each and everyday and I'm beginning to dwell on the happiness I can find via Craig's phonecall, Craig's chat or just hours spent at work. *sigh* How long can I go on this way????
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