Transformation

I love to rant and I love it more when I could be there for rants from other people. But at times, it makes me sick especially when people take too much advantage of your time for them. It even sucks more when I can't get myself down to their levels to empathize.

I haven't had anyone chucking bad rants at me this year luckily. I kinda thought about my life. I was talking to my knitting friend about our lives and it suddenly striked me how boring I've become. She's so full of life and she is like me last year. I like to think I'm getting more mature but on the other hand, she's always come across as someone who's mature. I guess I have, indeed, become boring.

When I started work, I was a clown. Everyone loves me for the center of attention I like to fish out of them. It's a give and take of cheeky lightweight insults or just plain pay outs. Then, I stopped. I can't really see myself doing that now a days. I don't know why. I am not even sure if it's for good or bad purposes.

Nonetheless, being in Burma has made me so much, if not better, more stable. Drama seems more than a one nite stand potential failing to appear in front of your apartment in one hour, love seems more than a compliment about your accent and a successful one liner in gay pubs and friends seem more than those who just wanna coffee with you to have a rant.

I am not saying my life in Burma rules. In fact, it's just so dramatic that I've begun to be more stable and steady when things go bad. How bad can it be? What would be the purpose of making a huge scene outta it?

In the midst of sanity, I have acquaintances who, after their 'more than one year' of marriage, still put lovey dovey statuses on gtalk. Despite its supposed beauty, knowing this girl, it's just disgusting. How insecure can you be? And it's not like both she and her hubby have been faithful to each other before their marriage. Maybe their marriage saved their asses but why go on about something that's too last year prada shoes to appreciate? It's more of a 'omg I should write something to make sure people think I'm having a good relationship with my husband when atually I'm very insecure about our future.'