Youth

I guess I was wrong about 'cool' people or 'supposedly cool' people. When I first got here, I totally flipped out a big bitchfest about socialites in Burma. I mean, it's true.. I still think they're pathetic. But come to think of it, I must have been like that if I were their age at this time in life. Things change and all you gotta do is accept. It's kinda like your ex can't love you anymore. Things change and you have to accept it.

Last night, I was at a party where Hkunie had to DJ at. It was at Ginki's and I was not looking forward to going there since I don't really know or like the birthday girl. Well, I don't hate her but I just have this feeling that I'm not a part of her crowd, so I wanna not have to do anything with her. I guess I've been immature all my life about these kids. They're mature enough to mingle and chuck a few convo or two, while I have always been insecure about myself around them.

Sadly, it is the rebellious black eyelined minoritied loser bunch from teenage flicks phase that I am going through. Just because I see myself as someone who cannot spend as much as them, I like to set myself in a circle that keeps me away from them. I dated this American soldier, Brad, once. He told me never put yourself in a circle or have anything out of your league. I guess that was how I got Craig. He's way hotter than any of those guys I would have ever allowed myself to move forward to chuck a one liner or few talks in pubs. I guess I gave it a go and it worked. Thanks Brad I guess!!

So, last night, despite me being in my own little bubble, I enjoyed watching them kids enjoy it. Birthday girl turned 22 and she's one of these 'in between' friends-glue when it comes to age gaps; she's friends with people like us and also with those younger than her. It was also fun to just chill and watch them socialize. Funny how years change the way we do things. Back when I was 22, the whole 'Gossip Girl' socializing scene wasn't much of an IN thing. Now, you've got all these kids dressed up (as opposed to baggy jeans and big daggy clothes), all cologned and all just having a blast with a spoonful of diplomacy and partial maturity. They remind me of little men or little women as opposed to kids or grown immature old people.

I don't know.. after tonight, I got to love these kids. I think we, older people, should learn from them since these kids are the leader of this so called Gen Y. Androgyny, weed, drugs and hip hop music... they're not bad people after all. They're just enjoying their age as well as I would have when/if I were at their age in life.

I'm pretty sure I was this wet blanket old guy sitting in the club, but they'd find it hard to wonder why I was smiling the whole time.