How To Save A Life

So, there is a thing called value in life. One of my friends made me cry tonight. He was typing stuffs away and I was reading each and every sentence and I couldn't stop but cry. That friend of mine, like I did, nearly took his life last year. And somehow during that era, he 'hung out' a lot with me. And he didn't. Now, I know this sounds stupid. But I do love him lots and I won't be able to forgive him if he ever did. After hearing him say how I was one of those elements that caused him not to take his life, I just cried. I couldn't stop my tears.

I cried cos he took the same path as I did. Three suicide attempts I've tried and my dad died when I was 19 cos he didn't take care of himself much (it was his health morelike.. not suicide), I am loving life so much more. And after talking about this with him, I just know that I'll be able to confide myself to him more and we'll kick ass in this thing called life.

So, after talking to him, I know I shouldn't be feeling nervous/scared/sad about this revue directing thing. I was for a while. But I shouldn't. Cos this is my chance to learn things from it. Paul Ayre told me to get a brother like friend who's outta the revue crowd to talk to during revuetime.. I've got mine now and I'm glad I got this friend as well.... cos I'll need this friend as much as I need air to breathe....

On a very different note, a big thanx to Crystal Y, Kai, Aarti, Owen, Erin, Iva P and Will for coming to my gig yesternight. I only rehearsed for two songs but ended up singing like four more songs with Avin's guitar. And FINALLY I got to watch Ladacy perform and I was damn proud of Dan and Cynthia. Cynthia sounds so much better with her own songs. I can't get over how good she was at Hours, Minutes. I think Dan should get more parts but of course he managed to melt my and all of my friends' hearts with his More than words cover.

Music: Fountains Of Wayne - This better be good

Mood: warm and fuzzy