The Villain

There are heroes in our lives and there are villains. And there are those who we HAVE to have for the heroes to shine and there are those we just love to hate, or even love to love. Take Dexter for example. He could be titled as a 'villain' and if he doesn't kill anyone in an episode, I just get a bit disappointed and wished he'd kill. So, there ARE villains we love after all. Another good example would be Queen B from Gossip Girl. Quoted "I'm the crazy bitch in town", we DO love her for being so outrageously bitchy and scandalously ill maliced to others. Can she help it? Well, can we help not hating her. She rocks the whole show.

My point is I think I'm turning into a villain. Not sure if I would be loved or hated. I am not doing any bad things... yet. But I've just totally buzzed outta my shell. I've become more cynical and bitter about little things in life. Am I turning out like to be my flatmate when she was about to turn thirty? I used to think she was so bitter and sore and anti-social. And now I have realized that I've completely turned into that. Not only that but I have become a bit uptight. Nothing amuses me as much as it used to. I went to a bar three nights ago and ended up playing ninetendo DS in the pub and went to gay bar afterwards just hoping I'd leave any minute, rejected two possible flirts online. Something must be in my head and I don't know what. Do I want a boyfriend? hahahaha, not that I know of. Am I feeling lonely? Well, it's only human to feel that. Am I still the Hein I know or have things changed? What has got into me? So, if I were a villain, would I be loved still? O, u gotta love the questions.

Heroes season 3 counting: 21 days left

Music: Alice In Chains - Dirt

Mood: bored as