Thailand.. I love it. I am so glad I get to do my IELTS exams here. It's like a nostalgia trip back to memory lane. I met up with my nanny who took care of me since I was five and my chauffeur who drove me to school when I was six. I have not met these people for 15 years. So, it felt really good and quite tearjerking actually. Things have changed a lot. I kept thinking the reason that I was sent back was to know where i come from.
Being back in Burma made me realize how homey it feels to be with my family, my mom and grandma still at each other's throats but still sweet as usual. They don't live together anymore and despite the fact that it pains to see my family apart, I find it somewhat amusing to take trips. It's like dealing with divorced parents. Imogen Heap was right.. there is beauty in breakdown. I have ever right to be sad and depressed but I somehow enjoy the thrill of organizing my trips to my mom, sister and grandma each and everyday. I have to make sure enough hours are given to them. This almost feels like Robby making revue schedules lol.
Being in Thailand, I get to talk to my grandma more. I now know a lot about my past. How I was born, how we're not a perfect family and how family fueds are so friggin common in our lives. I swear there were at least ten fights and 'leaving house' problems when I was one between my parents and their in-laws. I was born from the MOST imperfect family but yet I could never ask for more love from them. I love them so much and I see this imperfection as an element that has taught all of us to let go and be happy with what we all have. I mean, we are all happy now after all and I guess that's all that matters.
The exam was quite ok. My examiner for the speaking test actually knows a bit of Burmese language. He was caucasian by the way. The helpers ....... they know NOTHING about English. I Love Thai people cos they're so polite and so hip BUT I hate how they fail at speaking English. I had to talk to them in Thai in order to line up for my exam. What if I didn't know how to speak Thai... *le sigh*
Now I got everything done
My visa application will be lodged this week
I only have one more factor... 'time'
I'll wait and pray....
for my return to Sydney
On the OTHER hand, *ahem ahem*, I have found myself a producer. Once I'm back in Burma, I'll be working on a photo shoot to boost publicity and re-introduce myself to my fans there. It'll be in a magazine next month. Then, I'll be a monk and join the meditation center for a week. Then, I'll be working on my comeback album.. this time it's bilingual. So, it'll be English songs and Burmese songs. I get to write songs, sing them, arrange them, choreograph if any needed and direct my own video. My producer was pretty impressed with my work on revue. So, he's given me this chance... BUT
they're not on paper yet
I have yet to sign these things on contract
In a way, I'm excited :D
I miss you guys in SYdney though
Being back in Burma made me realize how homey it feels to be with my family, my mom and grandma still at each other's throats but still sweet as usual. They don't live together anymore and despite the fact that it pains to see my family apart, I find it somewhat amusing to take trips. It's like dealing with divorced parents. Imogen Heap was right.. there is beauty in breakdown. I have ever right to be sad and depressed but I somehow enjoy the thrill of organizing my trips to my mom, sister and grandma each and everyday. I have to make sure enough hours are given to them. This almost feels like Robby making revue schedules lol.
Being in Thailand, I get to talk to my grandma more. I now know a lot about my past. How I was born, how we're not a perfect family and how family fueds are so friggin common in our lives. I swear there were at least ten fights and 'leaving house' problems when I was one between my parents and their in-laws. I was born from the MOST imperfect family but yet I could never ask for more love from them. I love them so much and I see this imperfection as an element that has taught all of us to let go and be happy with what we all have. I mean, we are all happy now after all and I guess that's all that matters.
The exam was quite ok. My examiner for the speaking test actually knows a bit of Burmese language. He was caucasian by the way. The helpers ....... they know NOTHING about English. I Love Thai people cos they're so polite and so hip BUT I hate how they fail at speaking English. I had to talk to them in Thai in order to line up for my exam. What if I didn't know how to speak Thai... *le sigh*
Now I got everything done
My visa application will be lodged this week
I only have one more factor... 'time'
I'll wait and pray....
for my return to Sydney
On the OTHER hand, *ahem ahem*, I have found myself a producer. Once I'm back in Burma, I'll be working on a photo shoot to boost publicity and re-introduce myself to my fans there. It'll be in a magazine next month. Then, I'll be a monk and join the meditation center for a week. Then, I'll be working on my comeback album.. this time it's bilingual. So, it'll be English songs and Burmese songs. I get to write songs, sing them, arrange them, choreograph if any needed and direct my own video. My producer was pretty impressed with my work on revue. So, he's given me this chance... BUT
they're not on paper yet
I have yet to sign these things on contract
In a way, I'm excited :D
I miss you guys in SYdney though
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