Platonic Relationships

Watching "Zack and Miri Does a Porno Movie" only made me debate myself and god knows how long I've been debating and if you don't like a blog entry with no proper conclusion, stop reading now cos I know I'll keep on debating on this subject no matter what in the future.

So, does platonic relationship happen? My first reaction was yes because there has never been anytime I wanted to have sex with Alex or Zhe or Jack or Danny... but then again, I treat them like girls. Not cos they are girls but it's cos I treat them like my same gender.

It's a completely chaotic way that I think of people. I do not specifically have a gender but I do have this thing where I know I can relate to people like they are my brothers or somewhere along the line. Some people you'd go ew if you were given a million dollar to fuck them on a dinner table. And no it's not cos they're unattractive. In fact, compared to them, I'm the unfit person here.

I somehow thought of some people who I've met from gaydar or manhunt, or just generally Oxford St. I've sworn to myself so many times that we are friends to some of them. If by swearing a lie means that I shall go to hell, I'd be burning myself away because like it or not, I did fancy ALL OF MY friends who have a high potential to be able to bed me (aka people off the site or oxford st or just in general, men who are attracted to men). I really hate to say this but at times, the more I become closer to them, the more I have to run away from them. And that's why some of them ran outta patience on me. Some tells me I suck at keeping in touch but I guess the truth is I did have to run away from them before I start falling for them and fucking things up.

And while we're on this topic, I also notice that I have misjudged gay men. I thought most of them were perverts or just sexually active whorebags. Maybe I was right but I have no rights to judge them unless I am a bitter ex boyfriend of someone who's left me after ten years of a monogamous relationship. If there's anything in life that I would never wanna have in me (apart from a male animal's genital) is bitterness. I do not wanna dwell on that substance because it is a waste of time. Nothing gets solved and things don't get healed.

What I am trying to say here is that gay men have gay friends. Duh! And with them, they hang out with each other, forgetting the fact that they are happy around themselves. Plus, since they are 'friends', some make up rules, some laugh it off and some don't even mention about it. But deep inside, if you think for just once without any ego or stubborness, they are the ones you love. So, let me tell you people that you are never alone. There's only one thing that is stopping you from knowing who the real person is. Time. Time will tell when which of your friends are the one for you. So, I do NOT think gay men are whorebags.. they sometimes let their true feelings slip with their friends (since there are more than one for some) and if the timing is right, that's when it will hit them that they DO in fact love each other. So, if I ever date a guy and he sleeps around, I'll just know that his poor soul is still deciding which of his 'friends' he would wanna be together with for the rest of his life, while, of course, I'll do my own project ;)

Speaking of which, I have always made that theory where I believe in getting to know any men before I let them into my life.... isn't that quite ironic how 'getting to know' means 'to be friends' ?

P.S. for the time being, I DO NOT believe in platonic relationship. We are somewhat attracted to our friends and push comes to shove, bang... love is born.