As my final assignment in a philosophy class back in the ‘almost’ final year of my uni, I took on the subject regarding the resemblance of a human’s mind with the computer. I’m not sure if this is predictable but I took the side of its positivity, the mighty possible scenario ever.
I believe that most jokes derive from reality. Ghost movies derive from the actual spiritual world that exists. Myths and urban legends are just an exaggerated derivation of a possible truth. Using a computer, which is made by human beings in order to channel the abilities of a human but yet also have to be maintained by humans. In reality, most of us think that our feelings and emotions are unpredictably unsafe to be taken control of by others. Most of us think the world is our stage but little do we know that every inch and motion of our body is caused or motivated by our surroundings, which in another word, maintained by other human beings. Thus, when people say a computer is not a human being, they might want to think again according to the point I just made.
Limitations are always there though. When you have a program that has been coded by the programmer, he knows of what it is to do and the functions of this program has a lifespan and unmet conditions, which are only to be met under certain circumstances. Likewise, we, humans, do have our limitations where nothing is controllable or affected. It seems like everything we are doing on this planet Earth has been created and laid down as plans for us. Some call it religion. Some call it creation. Some call it cause. I call it ‘plan’.
As much as I would love to react to my surroundings on my own account occasionally, I have reached the point where I am able to open my mind up to accept the fact that everything was meant to happen and we cannot go around wasting time for justifications.
My dad died when I was 19 and that would be the ultimate sacrifice I had to take to be the responsible man of the family, which of course I am still working on.
I was meant to get back to Yangon, despite the whole drama of missing my loved ones in Sydney, to learn more about life and responsibilities. If it wasn’t for the experience I am gathering at the moment from work, I would still be selling jeans at Jayjays whilst the economical recession frowns upon me.
I was meant to meet my partner I choose to spend my lifetime with through the most pathetic way ever. Online. Yet, it has captured moments which I would’ve never experienced had I been the same promiscuous of a gay man with so much possibilities to just sleep around and freak men out from lack of security; mind wise and status wise.
Now, I’m forced to think that my partner going cold on me is yet another indicator to another effect. I am truly tired and I have started to not react much to things anymore.
Buddhism says love is encouraged on an empathetic level, yet greed is sinned. As much as I used to be able to love and trust my partner before, I’ve grown tired of having to suffer from the consequences greed has upon me. I believed in fairy tales. I believed in freedom. I believed in cause and effect.
However, tonight… I just believe that things will happen as they’re meant to be. If my partner wants to be with me til death do us part, so be it. If he chooses to leave, so be it. I’ll just sit and wait what the future has in store for me. 24 hours ago, BooMan was the ONLY person on planet Earth who could see the inner feelings I have. It’s over now. I guess it’s not worth having feelings towards things in life when they are part of a plan of ‘meant to be’s.
I feel numb as of now but I know that is the only way for me to stop questioning. Rest in peace, questioning mind. Behold the slave to the life plan. Bring it on and I’ll suffer. Bring it on and I’ll learn. Bring it on and I’ll live. Nothing and no one is number one to me. Everyone is the same.
May the old Hein be forgiven for taking this long to appreciate this newfound beauty of a life plan. Live smart, people! Don’t waste your tears or laughter for anything.
I believe that most jokes derive from reality. Ghost movies derive from the actual spiritual world that exists. Myths and urban legends are just an exaggerated derivation of a possible truth. Using a computer, which is made by human beings in order to channel the abilities of a human but yet also have to be maintained by humans. In reality, most of us think that our feelings and emotions are unpredictably unsafe to be taken control of by others. Most of us think the world is our stage but little do we know that every inch and motion of our body is caused or motivated by our surroundings, which in another word, maintained by other human beings. Thus, when people say a computer is not a human being, they might want to think again according to the point I just made.
Limitations are always there though. When you have a program that has been coded by the programmer, he knows of what it is to do and the functions of this program has a lifespan and unmet conditions, which are only to be met under certain circumstances. Likewise, we, humans, do have our limitations where nothing is controllable or affected. It seems like everything we are doing on this planet Earth has been created and laid down as plans for us. Some call it religion. Some call it creation. Some call it cause. I call it ‘plan’.
As much as I would love to react to my surroundings on my own account occasionally, I have reached the point where I am able to open my mind up to accept the fact that everything was meant to happen and we cannot go around wasting time for justifications.
My dad died when I was 19 and that would be the ultimate sacrifice I had to take to be the responsible man of the family, which of course I am still working on.
I was meant to get back to Yangon, despite the whole drama of missing my loved ones in Sydney, to learn more about life and responsibilities. If it wasn’t for the experience I am gathering at the moment from work, I would still be selling jeans at Jayjays whilst the economical recession frowns upon me.
I was meant to meet my partner I choose to spend my lifetime with through the most pathetic way ever. Online. Yet, it has captured moments which I would’ve never experienced had I been the same promiscuous of a gay man with so much possibilities to just sleep around and freak men out from lack of security; mind wise and status wise.
Now, I’m forced to think that my partner going cold on me is yet another indicator to another effect. I am truly tired and I have started to not react much to things anymore.
Buddhism says love is encouraged on an empathetic level, yet greed is sinned. As much as I used to be able to love and trust my partner before, I’ve grown tired of having to suffer from the consequences greed has upon me. I believed in fairy tales. I believed in freedom. I believed in cause and effect.
However, tonight… I just believe that things will happen as they’re meant to be. If my partner wants to be with me til death do us part, so be it. If he chooses to leave, so be it. I’ll just sit and wait what the future has in store for me. 24 hours ago, BooMan was the ONLY person on planet Earth who could see the inner feelings I have. It’s over now. I guess it’s not worth having feelings towards things in life when they are part of a plan of ‘meant to be’s.
I feel numb as of now but I know that is the only way for me to stop questioning. Rest in peace, questioning mind. Behold the slave to the life plan. Bring it on and I’ll suffer. Bring it on and I’ll learn. Bring it on and I’ll live. Nothing and no one is number one to me. Everyone is the same.
May the old Hein be forgiven for taking this long to appreciate this newfound beauty of a life plan. Live smart, people! Don’t waste your tears or laughter for anything.
Listening to: 311 - Amber
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