I feel bad blogging about this but I just reached a certain threshold in my system where I can’t hold it back any longer. So, the reason why BooMan were being all weird on Saturday was because he was drunk. I get drunk as well but it sucks that I didn’t know stuffs when he’s drunk. I would somehow ALWAYS email him back the day after to tell him I was ok or I was drunk before. Sunday was spent with me and him trying to solve this out, which kinda resulted in a very good ending since both of us popped VZOChat’s cherry and we were doing the whole thing most long distanced lovers do. Cam chat!!! It was cute to see him in his red trucker cap.
Today was just weird once again. He came for a while and he seemed drunk once again and I just had enough. Now, I feel like I’m just stuck in the middle. It seems like he kept winning me over with words and promises he KEEPS giving, which I NEVER EVER checked or expected. I do trust him but all talk and no action just made me a bit angry.
When I’m mad, I ignore people. With him, I cannot ignore. But at the same time, I felt like I was pushed away. Yes, people lose jobs and it’s not suddenly they’ll get new ones. People don’t meet expectations and this is what happens to everyone. I really hate comparing but in the midst of my problematic reality, I felt the urge to ask my psychic tonight if BooMan would find a job soon. On the other end, BooMan has been pretty lazy and not free to go to the tarot to ask about us. It’s not the tarot results that I am interested in but I guess, as much as I do not expect much from him, I feel like it’s really useless at this point to expect anything from him.
I just felt like he was drunk when he chat to me today and he did his infamous either falling asleep or logging off. I’m not a strong person but I soldier on each and every second. Now, if I end up with someone way weaker than me, I might have to reconsider my future despite really loving your partner.
I just wish I could get some action for once instead of words. I think me being there all the time and serving with what I’ve got best kinda spoilt him more into a ‘do whatever I want when I want to but I will get forgiveness after saying I love you’ routine for him. I’m actually very sick of him today. No, I’m not talking about a break up. I’m just in this mood where I can’t really think about BooMan for once in my eight months of relationship life span.
Fuck this!
Today was just weird once again. He came for a while and he seemed drunk once again and I just had enough. Now, I feel like I’m just stuck in the middle. It seems like he kept winning me over with words and promises he KEEPS giving, which I NEVER EVER checked or expected. I do trust him but all talk and no action just made me a bit angry.
When I’m mad, I ignore people. With him, I cannot ignore. But at the same time, I felt like I was pushed away. Yes, people lose jobs and it’s not suddenly they’ll get new ones. People don’t meet expectations and this is what happens to everyone. I really hate comparing but in the midst of my problematic reality, I felt the urge to ask my psychic tonight if BooMan would find a job soon. On the other end, BooMan has been pretty lazy and not free to go to the tarot to ask about us. It’s not the tarot results that I am interested in but I guess, as much as I do not expect much from him, I feel like it’s really useless at this point to expect anything from him.
I just felt like he was drunk when he chat to me today and he did his infamous either falling asleep or logging off. I’m not a strong person but I soldier on each and every second. Now, if I end up with someone way weaker than me, I might have to reconsider my future despite really loving your partner.
I just wish I could get some action for once instead of words. I think me being there all the time and serving with what I’ve got best kinda spoilt him more into a ‘do whatever I want when I want to but I will get forgiveness after saying I love you’ routine for him. I’m actually very sick of him today. No, I’m not talking about a break up. I’m just in this mood where I can’t really think about BooMan for once in my eight months of relationship life span.
Fuck this!
Listening to: Bjork - Declare independence
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