There comes a day in life when you find out more about yourself and there’s nothing you can do but just accept it. It has nothing to do with our personalities but rather our reactions towards things. Given first impressions, we find it too easy to do things without thinking.
I don’t really have secrets and I’m normally a loose bag of information. Some people find me quite mysterious but ironically it’s just me shining whichever changes in me. I react fast and express quite openly to a lot of things without using my brain. Not because I do not have the time but just that I do not really have any instinct to ever use it. It’s how humans react. When we have ourselves who we can’t understand, it’s only fair you learn something new about a person each and everyday, including yourself.
Maltesers and I had an open talk. I felt so ashamed. Instead of confronting such a small issue with her, I confided in her housemate, who in turn, used my story to tell her how I feel, BUT by injecting a lot of her version into it. So, her housemate used my story to tell her off regarding meat that SHE had against her, not me. I stopped talking to Maltesers because I was ashamed. Not using my brain to betray my own good friend and badmouthing about her to her housemate, I didn’t have the guts to blame myself, until today.
Just happy with Maltesers’ acceptance for me back into her life, I was closed to tears telling her how wrong I had been to not come confront with her. She was told all of those issues I had no problem with, her housemate exaggerating the story to “make her better”. I felt great that I let it all out to Maltesers and I was proud that I could come to terms with the fact that I did something wrong, but somehow I got her friendship back and I have every motivation to just use her housemate as my acquaintance.
On the other hand, me not being able to keep a secret, I told wifeyD about how I felt about him. Why? Because it has become too hard to categorize what we both have. Close friends yet flirting heavily, we both don’t really know where this is heading. Impatient and quite ‘not holding back anything’, I told him I really like him a lot, to which he said he would respond later on it.
It could be implied that he fell asleep and didn’t manage to get back online but for a boy who’s opened up to his close friend that he likes him and not getting any reactions back, I felt ashamed once again. I have no idea where I stand with wifeyD as of now.
I guess it’s just yet another weakness of mine to be open and unable to keep any secrets about how I feel or react towards stimuli. I gained my friendship with Maltesers but has mine with wifeyD come to an end?
I don’t really have secrets and I’m normally a loose bag of information. Some people find me quite mysterious but ironically it’s just me shining whichever changes in me. I react fast and express quite openly to a lot of things without using my brain. Not because I do not have the time but just that I do not really have any instinct to ever use it. It’s how humans react. When we have ourselves who we can’t understand, it’s only fair you learn something new about a person each and everyday, including yourself.
Maltesers and I had an open talk. I felt so ashamed. Instead of confronting such a small issue with her, I confided in her housemate, who in turn, used my story to tell her how I feel, BUT by injecting a lot of her version into it. So, her housemate used my story to tell her off regarding meat that SHE had against her, not me. I stopped talking to Maltesers because I was ashamed. Not using my brain to betray my own good friend and badmouthing about her to her housemate, I didn’t have the guts to blame myself, until today.
Just happy with Maltesers’ acceptance for me back into her life, I was closed to tears telling her how wrong I had been to not come confront with her. She was told all of those issues I had no problem with, her housemate exaggerating the story to “make her better”. I felt great that I let it all out to Maltesers and I was proud that I could come to terms with the fact that I did something wrong, but somehow I got her friendship back and I have every motivation to just use her housemate as my acquaintance.
On the other hand, me not being able to keep a secret, I told wifeyD about how I felt about him. Why? Because it has become too hard to categorize what we both have. Close friends yet flirting heavily, we both don’t really know where this is heading. Impatient and quite ‘not holding back anything’, I told him I really like him a lot, to which he said he would respond later on it.
It could be implied that he fell asleep and didn’t manage to get back online but for a boy who’s opened up to his close friend that he likes him and not getting any reactions back, I felt ashamed once again. I have no idea where I stand with wifeyD as of now.
I guess it’s just yet another weakness of mine to be open and unable to keep any secrets about how I feel or react towards stimuli. I gained my friendship with Maltesers but has mine with wifeyD come to an end?
Listening to: Nelly Furtado - Try
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