The feeling you get from an approval from someone you like being around with, be it marriage proposal, first day to announce exclusivity or an agreement to a poly amorous relationship, has a tendency to make us fall hard. This is where anyone of any gender would stop using their brains. Once the realization seeps into our thick heads with positive expectations, whatever inner voice, which is holding you back to take things slow or creating second thoughts, just turns mute. Some of us like to wear safety jackets and some of us like to stop ourselves from getting hurt. It all has to do with our perceptions on how things would be in the future with the person you do not think is compatible for you. Unfortunately, no one knows what the future could be but the ‘halt’ itself is a brake one would use, given the inner voice would turn mute if he/she proceeds on.
I was surprised to get a phone message from BK today. BK and I have been friends since the day he joined my music page on facebook. I just thought he was kinda cute and hip and I’ve added him to my list. We tried to meet up once when I was kinda frisky while I was with BooMan but it never worked since I didn’t want to cheat on BooMan. I told BK quite blatantly that I knew if he was to come and sleep over at my place, we would end up having sex and that I have a boyfriend (back then). He was fine with it and kinda glad I was honest with him.
Random much but BK messaged me some months ago while I was at a huge break up stage with BooMan. He mentioned he missed me and that he didn’t know why but he felt like he wanted to know me better and after four phone messages of appreciation, he chucked out the L word. I found that quite sweet actually and I was in a bit of an attention seeking stage after a break up anyways.
Not long ago, BK and I talked again and we were trying to meet up. I’ve never played games with him sadly and I mentioned how I do not really stay here in Burma and that I have plans to leave and that it would be better for him to not see me as his potential someone who would share kitchen utensils with him and go furniture shopping together. He liked my honesty once again and we’ve been trying to meet up ever since. I’ve been trying to get hold of him mainly cos I’ve been pretty much in need of sexual attention and this was the message I got this morning.
Damn it, I deleted it but the message was an apology for not hanging out with me last night after he got a message from me asking him to hang out with me. (I swear it was just a hang out message). He mentioned he couldn’t really get out but then he apologized and said ‘this is not the time for us. I’m really sorry’. Now, which part of my message screamed ‘dating’? It was a ‘hang out’ message.
Been there, done that and if I am not wrong, BK has totally seen me as his potential boyfriend and he knows that he would’ve been hurt if he was to try me out. So, he stopped himself from trying to get to know me and hurting himself from the ugly truth that I wouldn’t be holding onto him as a boyfriend or a committed partner.
Or, the other alternate scenario could be BK having found someone he really likes and he doesn’t want to put me in the picture.
Either ways, BK’s out of my game list. I have been honest with him in the past and it’d be too difficult for me to be experimenting him anyways. As for future proposal of a get together, sorry readers, I don’t do men with uncertainties.
I was surprised to get a phone message from BK today. BK and I have been friends since the day he joined my music page on facebook. I just thought he was kinda cute and hip and I’ve added him to my list. We tried to meet up once when I was kinda frisky while I was with BooMan but it never worked since I didn’t want to cheat on BooMan. I told BK quite blatantly that I knew if he was to come and sleep over at my place, we would end up having sex and that I have a boyfriend (back then). He was fine with it and kinda glad I was honest with him.
Random much but BK messaged me some months ago while I was at a huge break up stage with BooMan. He mentioned he missed me and that he didn’t know why but he felt like he wanted to know me better and after four phone messages of appreciation, he chucked out the L word. I found that quite sweet actually and I was in a bit of an attention seeking stage after a break up anyways.
Not long ago, BK and I talked again and we were trying to meet up. I’ve never played games with him sadly and I mentioned how I do not really stay here in Burma and that I have plans to leave and that it would be better for him to not see me as his potential someone who would share kitchen utensils with him and go furniture shopping together. He liked my honesty once again and we’ve been trying to meet up ever since. I’ve been trying to get hold of him mainly cos I’ve been pretty much in need of sexual attention and this was the message I got this morning.
Damn it, I deleted it but the message was an apology for not hanging out with me last night after he got a message from me asking him to hang out with me. (I swear it was just a hang out message). He mentioned he couldn’t really get out but then he apologized and said ‘this is not the time for us. I’m really sorry’. Now, which part of my message screamed ‘dating’? It was a ‘hang out’ message.
Been there, done that and if I am not wrong, BK has totally seen me as his potential boyfriend and he knows that he would’ve been hurt if he was to try me out. So, he stopped himself from trying to get to know me and hurting himself from the ugly truth that I wouldn’t be holding onto him as a boyfriend or a committed partner.
Or, the other alternate scenario could be BK having found someone he really likes and he doesn’t want to put me in the picture.
Either ways, BK’s out of my game list. I have been honest with him in the past and it’d be too difficult for me to be experimenting him anyways. As for future proposal of a get together, sorry readers, I don’t do men with uncertainties.
Listening to: Morcheeba - Living hell
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