Me So Horny (RATED ENTRY)

Do I have sex a lot? Wait... I think I should make that a 'did'. Am I a sexualholic? Wait, that's not even a word..

Ok, yes I admit. I'm a sex pig, amyl whore and a good kisser.... but clean and passionate. It's been five months since I last had one given I can only have one with the gender I prefer. Ok I did have a bit of an oral fest with a straight dude last month. So, yeah I guess I haven't been involved in a heavy passionate moaner session for five months. Sex, to me, is kinda like everything a man wants. Ego boost, pleasure, care free usage, symbol of his integrity or just a plain release. I was talking to a friend today who wanted to date me. Don't get me wrong. I love this guy to death. I care about him as he always watched my back (NO PUNS) when I was in Sydney. Always there to lend me money though I've never borrowed any before despite my brokeness. I told him that I wouldn't wanna date him only cos I know he's not what I want. I could love him or have sex with him but I'm not attracted to him. And THAT made me think. Ok, how do I get aroused? After reading that sentence I wrote to him for more than five times, it goes to show that I get aroused easily via personality and the closure and NOT by looks. That kinda proved why I wasn't that turned on for a second round of wrestlesex with a muscle stud ages ago. I mean, he was more than fine but I didn't dive in more for it whereas I always end up screwing this 45+ year old man I would always go whenever I'm horny. So, basically I think I have sex without the 'commitment' string but the 'ease' and 'comfort' and 'closure' string.

The following scenario proved it as well. I went to Arq one night in Sydney in 2007. I met this middle aged dude. Name was Ian. Went to his house. We ended up being the same roled people. Now, for those of you who haven't been reading this blog or just don't know me at all, gay guys have two roles. One's a fucker and one's a fuckee. Simply a fuckee gets fucked and a fucker fucks a fuckee. We were both fuckees. But we had sex from 11pm til the next day 3pm. How? Ok, a dildo was involved but after so much closeness I felt with him, I started to fuck him good as much as he fucked me good as well. Well, I saw this guy who's a friend of Simon, one of my gay friends who sings. And yes Ian sings as well. So, after reading Ian's comment on Simon's status, I asked Simon to ask Ian if he knows a Hein. Well, the thing was... I was supposed to keep in touch with Ian but somehow I lost my handphone later and lost his number and it's been 2 years. So, thinking it'd be nice to find him again and possibly have good sex with him if I ever go back to Sydney, I asked Simon. After a few minutes, I felt kinda rude that I didn't ask Ian on my own. Somehow the fact that gay guys can have straight male friends totally escaped my mind. So I messaged Ian, telling him about our good a day and a half sex and all that, only to find out later after several minutes from Simon that this Ian IS STRAIGHT. HOLY FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! This is what you get for being extra horny and losing ur handphone.

Work was uber busy but pretty good today. Exboss and I chilled in the morning. I think Exboss is in her zone these days. Not that I never appreciated her before but she's way better than she used to be and much funnier and happier and it was just RAD to hang out with her. I just came outta her room after complimenting her that she looks like this notorious Thai female ghost. I mean, Ghosts were once humans and as a human, she looks pretty. So, forgetting that ghosts can look uber ugly and scary after death, I told her she looks like that Thai ghost and she jumped. On another funny note, Opal messaged me on facebook ALL THE WAY from Italy to say "YOU NEVER SENT ME GIFTS" and this was farmville related. I said sorry and I told her I'll give her a banana tree. She said she wanted a horse and not a banana tree cos dimensions matter. That's what you get from your workmate who was once a technical advisor all the way from Italy after a few weeks of no contacts with her. Farmville.... sucks us all in eh.

I somehow felt a bit 'out of it' today when I saw pics of Steve with Designer and his wife and also KP's wife though KP wasn't in there. I just felt like I got neglected outta that group. Maybe it's just my time to grow up and hang out with the REAL mature people. I love Steve and KP but if their reason for this black out on our friendship was immature and unacceptable, I should just move on. Yes, people, shit happens.. c'est la vie.