It's been accumulating in my system but somehow I gotta let it burst.
I was down with a flu yesterday and it's only fair enough that no one can sense how heavily dosed I was with antibiotics, given I do not feel like losing any day at work. Trust me, working in the humanitarian field, the last thing you want to have is a holiday while you're halfway through what you're trying to achieve. So, dazed and weak, I relied on gtalk during work to keep me awake.
And yes it sure did keep me awake!!!!!!
Now, what IS a friend? And by friend, I mean a platonic one; someone you are friends with knowing he/she's got a significant other.
A friend, to me, is someone who makes you feel good. And by the term 'feel good', I mean ANYTHING TO FEEL GOOD.
1. Pick up where we leave off. Now this is important for me as I move around a lot. I always feel guilty whenever I leave a place fast enough to not be able to have a proper goodbye and I hate goodbyes anyways. Somehow, a lot of my good friends have been pretty awesome by telling me that it sucked that i left them without a trace but yet they're still around given we're still buddies and we could start any 'tomorrows' the same way as we finished our 'yesterdays' with a proper and awesome "today".
2. Glue-people. Ok, it's one thing to be majorly attached to a friend but at times, he/she needs a break and it's best to leave them be before they go all wild on you. I have so little time to give it to those around me and I'm a bit of a workaholic/career-minded person and it's only fair that I'm actually penciling down your availabilities on my planner. I cannot be around you all the time too unless you're my awesome close buddy. Even then, I might not be around you lots. Look at my best-friend-since-kid Dicky. I was in Sydney for 5 years and I have only managed to see him like 20 times in those 5 years. Just because I did not ring you up on an occasion, it doesn't mean I am NOT your friend.
3. Blame Game. This can also be due to insecurity. The absence can make people fuel up insecure guilt inside of them. The sad thing is how they have NOTHING to worry about. I do come and go and that's the way I flow. Just because I do not see you much anymore does not mean I hate you. Let alone hate, I don't even have time to list down bad things about you.
4. Guilt tripping. Oh it really hurt me how you don't give me time anymore. It really sucks how you've changed. Well, ladies and gentlemen, these are the things I would ONLY like to hear from my partner. Even if I do, if he repeats that more than three times, I would just go out and have a slurpee.
So, I'm sure after you read this, you might be wondering how much of a prick I am. That's fine!
The deal is.. I am a nice person and I have treated others with respect all of my life. And to those who I haven't, don't worry.. I've learnt from the mistakes I've done in you guys. As much as we cannot go back to history to be like before anymore, I can at least be happy that I was able to learn a lot from you guys. Yes, it's true I might have shouted in your face before but god, trust me, you've taught me well.
I do not intend to cause anything for others but blaming me for something I cannot do to make you happy..
which means I will have to go out WHEN I'm heavily dosed on antibioitcs..
go out WHEN I'm broke to avoid borrowing money from you..
not answering the phone COS I'd have my headphones on but by the time I check your missed call, I would avoid callling you because it's past sleeping hours...
So, to all of you who easily gets angry with these, SCREW YOU!!! And feel free to put me off your list.
I don't hold grudges and I'm not asking you to change. So, if you want to start a new beginning with me, you're more than welcome.
Please be considerate and play nice!!
And remember..
When I say 'NO', there is NO hidden meaning behind it...
spend more time on asking yourself why you're angry with my refusal THAN to be all raged up about my reject..
Grow up, people! It's for your own good!
I was down with a flu yesterday and it's only fair enough that no one can sense how heavily dosed I was with antibiotics, given I do not feel like losing any day at work. Trust me, working in the humanitarian field, the last thing you want to have is a holiday while you're halfway through what you're trying to achieve. So, dazed and weak, I relied on gtalk during work to keep me awake.
And yes it sure did keep me awake!!!!!!
Now, what IS a friend? And by friend, I mean a platonic one; someone you are friends with knowing he/she's got a significant other.
A friend, to me, is someone who makes you feel good. And by the term 'feel good', I mean ANYTHING TO FEEL GOOD.
1. Pick up where we leave off. Now this is important for me as I move around a lot. I always feel guilty whenever I leave a place fast enough to not be able to have a proper goodbye and I hate goodbyes anyways. Somehow, a lot of my good friends have been pretty awesome by telling me that it sucked that i left them without a trace but yet they're still around given we're still buddies and we could start any 'tomorrows' the same way as we finished our 'yesterdays' with a proper and awesome "today".
2. Glue-people. Ok, it's one thing to be majorly attached to a friend but at times, he/she needs a break and it's best to leave them be before they go all wild on you. I have so little time to give it to those around me and I'm a bit of a workaholic/career-minded person and it's only fair that I'm actually penciling down your availabilities on my planner. I cannot be around you all the time too unless you're my awesome close buddy. Even then, I might not be around you lots. Look at my best-friend-since-kid Dicky. I was in Sydney for 5 years and I have only managed to see him like 20 times in those 5 years. Just because I did not ring you up on an occasion, it doesn't mean I am NOT your friend.
3. Blame Game. This can also be due to insecurity. The absence can make people fuel up insecure guilt inside of them. The sad thing is how they have NOTHING to worry about. I do come and go and that's the way I flow. Just because I do not see you much anymore does not mean I hate you. Let alone hate, I don't even have time to list down bad things about you.
4. Guilt tripping. Oh it really hurt me how you don't give me time anymore. It really sucks how you've changed. Well, ladies and gentlemen, these are the things I would ONLY like to hear from my partner. Even if I do, if he repeats that more than three times, I would just go out and have a slurpee.
So, I'm sure after you read this, you might be wondering how much of a prick I am. That's fine!
The deal is.. I am a nice person and I have treated others with respect all of my life. And to those who I haven't, don't worry.. I've learnt from the mistakes I've done in you guys. As much as we cannot go back to history to be like before anymore, I can at least be happy that I was able to learn a lot from you guys. Yes, it's true I might have shouted in your face before but god, trust me, you've taught me well.
I do not intend to cause anything for others but blaming me for something I cannot do to make you happy..
which means I will have to go out WHEN I'm heavily dosed on antibioitcs..
go out WHEN I'm broke to avoid borrowing money from you..
not answering the phone COS I'd have my headphones on but by the time I check your missed call, I would avoid callling you because it's past sleeping hours...
So, to all of you who easily gets angry with these, SCREW YOU!!! And feel free to put me off your list.
I don't hold grudges and I'm not asking you to change. So, if you want to start a new beginning with me, you're more than welcome.
Please be considerate and play nice!!
And remember..
When I say 'NO', there is NO hidden meaning behind it...
spend more time on asking yourself why you're angry with my refusal THAN to be all raged up about my reject..
Grow up, people! It's for your own good!
Listening to: 3oh!3 – My first kiss (feat. Kei$ha)
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