Angel.... it's homonymous for 'loud in the house' in Burmese. (Ain gae) Yeah I kinda saw the angel in me today. I was at my job interview with UN and I somehow morphed into this quiet hamster from a loud hiyena. It's not like I don't know two of the interviewers in there. I've talked to them and I've got one of them on my facebook friend list. But somehow I just felt so intimidated without any good reason and just had a bit of whispery version of me. Weird huh?
So, if I ever get this job, my resume will look awesomely attractive but the office space is totally small and people are somewhat packed in there. I'm also thinking I might need a laptop given I don't see anyone using desktops at all. The guard did describe the building as a pigeon hole. It does look like a two storey birdhouse, but only files as hay strips and people as birds (DUH). They asked me how much I would be able to work and I did a bit of a fast mathematics in my head. I said 2-3 months because up til now I haven't got any news from my lawyer regarding the Australian permanent residency and even if I do now, it'll take me a month to sort things out. So, if I only get anything from my lawyer in August, the whole of August would be spent with the process, which means by the end of September I would be able to get my ass outta Burma. But given I would like a HUGE word UN on my resume, I might as well work at least two months for them.
I finally called Craig up today. Couldn't bear to not care for him while he's having a hard time. I mean, come on, his grand-dad passed away and he told me that he's got this lung infection/pneumonia. So, yeah it was pretty good to hear his voice. Surprisingly he had this 'oh hi there my name is Willy Wonka' voice, normal and quite welcomey, not what I've been expecting. I was expecting a bit of a soggy cried out voice with the whole 'omg i'm sad'. So, yeah not knowing why, I was proud of his 'normal' behavior I guess.
It's tough, people! Love is such a chaotic thing. You try to do the right things and the wrong things, not knowing which is right or wrong and you wonder why some peple could do the same thing right while you get it wrong. You start questioning yourself and others. You start assuming and start living as others. You start to draw lines and circles around you and the other person. You start to wonder what the other person is up to, while forgetting about what you ARE doing in the present. To be honest, I'm not really sure if what I've done was wise or 'right', but I guess I'll pay for the consequences later. Dunno! Maybe he'll stay.. maybe he'll stray... I guess it's better NOT caring for the time being.
Sleep was nice. I slept like a vampire in Arabia and I caught up on a lot of Desperate Housewives episodes. Life is good! :D
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