Friends

I've been doing a pretty good job at trying to give time to my friends lately. Today(Tuesday) was Ness' turn. Well, it was her who made me brush my teeth. I am the type of person who actually needs time to think whether to brush my teeth yet or not but Nessyboo's phonecall made me do it cos I was excited about catching up with her and having lunch. Also cos I wasn't THAT broke. Haha, I've been doing this new routine where I consider myself 'broke' if/when I have a thousand bucks only in my account. So, I had lunch with Nessyboo, Thai Chao praya. The larb gai was horrible but I ended up taking a lot of Nessyboo's red curry. But the fried ice cream was just YUM. We had a good talk and I wasn't in the mood to go to gym but since nessyboo dropped me off there (this was part of the plan to motivate each other to stay thin or toned), I had to.

Ok, I'm annoyed again. Why? Cos of the word 'friend'. For fuck sake, I got so many of them and I am not the one to rank them or rate them like I used to when I was in high school. That's stupid. I know who are nice to me. I got so many types of friends.

• Best friends : those who are actually considered as my best friends. Why do I have a lot? Well, cos I go around a lot and hang out in different societies and it's only fair enough that I end up with more than one best friend. (Dicky, Ali, Jen, Sara, Luke P, Ness, KP(in burma))
• Close friends since first year : those who are my best friends but still there's a bit of a level I have to get into to be friends with them. (Alex, Zhe, Danny, Dave L)
• Close friends(in general) : those who I've come to know and really like and trust. (Nick Daly, Robyn Hutch, Amelia, Aarti, Dave Field, Ben W)
• CSE REVUE family : anyone from cse revue who I really really love.
• MED REVUE family : now these are friends from med revue 2008. Those who I'm closed to know who they are.
• Jayjays family : now these people are I worked with are more than friends to me. They are like my family. (Jess, Mills, LB, Leah, Suki, Soon)
  
• Outer uni(aka Gayclan) Bestfriends : these are the ones who's kept me sane during my homo life in Australia. (Matt L(Paris), Craig, Blaise, Daniel L, Kieran, Simon(in London), Jon Jon, Samir, Darren, Babylet, Cleo)
• seasonal friends : these ones come and go with seasons. Some manage to stay and some manage to just toggle in between eras and times and phases.
• oxford street acquaintances : these ones just make me feel good during my clubbing days. Some of them just huddle around me when and if only I have a hot friend with me.
• "Sanity" friends : now, these are just friends who are stupid and fucked in the head I love to be around to kinda remind myself of how sane and better I am when compared to them.

So, as I've mentioned, I DO NOT rate them. There'll be times when my best friend Ali would piss me off and my other seasonal friend would make my day or something like that. But, they all have different places in my heart. Apart from the first three categories, no one's better or worse. So, here I am amidst the whole "too many friends" syndrome, I end up having FRIENDS from chat sites.

Their first intentions would be to flirt with me and it would all go well and BAM all of a sudden, they decide to be my friend and tell me about who they fancy and such. I mean, it's one thing to flirt but it's stupid when you suddenly wanna be a friend of mine without any warnings and to stop all those flirt games episodes. All of a sudden, they just go "Hein, I see you as a friend" or "Hein, you are so nice to me I'm scared to lose you if I ever cross the line". So, I came up with a new theory which is to just fuck those from chat sites and if they're good, they can be my 'boyfriend' candidates and if not, just be my fuckbuddy. ONLY FUCKBUDDY. Like fuck me and leave me alone buddies. I'm totally sick of it. It makes me feel like I'm some kinda a non-boyfriend material and just someone you come to to feel good about yourself. And, when the day's over, they'll come back and flirt with me anyways. So, I , at times, have this bad honor to be this part time boyfriend shit when they run outta guys to perve.

Urghhhh, it drives me up the walls.....

Yes, I did decide to not blog about Dave F anymore cos it makes me sick how I'm swooning like a high school sophomore-on-a-senior crush nympho. But, let me just say I am quite worried all of these games that I thought were played between me and him would just go to a 'friendship' waste and let's just say it's highly possible..... *le sigh*

Music: Garbage - Bad Boyfriend

Mood: tres annoyed