Trust Hein's Man

Hein, you're such a drama queen. I've been reading my blogs and all and wow, I used to be such a catastrophe when it comes to relationships. I think the dosage of teen flicks and lightweight rom-coms had really fucked my brains up and got me to believe "so life should be as simple as this". Analytical and willing to learn I was but I was never able to grasp the idea of the real beauty of a 'relationship'. It sounds pathetic writing about this tonight as the inspiration comes truly from ... yes, you guessed it right. Yet another rom-com. I rent it only cos of David Duchovny. I'd do anything for that man. Lucky bitch Tea Leoni is. But yeah, back to my story... So yeah the movie was called "Trust The Man" and after watching that flick, I began to realize my major flaw in my so many attempts of a good intentioned and anitcipated so called relationship. I blamed it on gay guys being as horny as ugly dogs in heat in the month of October. However, I guess I should just accept the fact that I never made my men make a mistake. I was so into the whole beauty of life with no flaws and I was unintentionally controlling my men and kinda telling them what I want in life. What do I want in life? If you ask me, that's not for me to say it. I can work at it but I cannot get it. Not that easy. Despite the fact that I have learnt a lot from my mistakes, I have failed to let my men burn and learn. So, yeah after watching this flick, I guess I should just love my man for who or what he is and whatever fucked up things this way come, for whatever the reason is or cause is, I know he'll come back to me if he loves me. So, yeah, I guess it takes one to know one. It takes a man to fully understand a man. Amen!!!!

Music: Wham - Love Machine

Mood: hopeful