FIghter

It's funny to see one of your close friends at the point where he needs u. I went out tonight with one of my close friends I haven't hung out for ages with. We went to oxford st's shift and we were being the dancing bitches partners like we always were. Turned out this guy he's been talking to on manhunt ended up picking up some guy who we both don't really like. He was pretty angry and even I was pretty amazed at how that dipshit chose the loser as opposed to him. Now, that makes me feel kinda like I'm not alone in the 'loser' phase. I'm not trying to say my close friend is a loser but I guess everyone's had their bad day. It was quite frustrating to see him a bit annoyed since I look up to this close friend of mine. He was pretty annoyed.... but I was glad I was there with him for him even if I couldn't do anything to make things better...

Now, people, if you think I'm issuless... think again.
My sis just had a divorce, my mom's on the verge of a breakdown, my grandma cried not long ago.. I heard all of these through my sis today. She's like the 'reality' reporter who would tell me everything as it is as opposed to my grandparents trying to sugarize everything that's been around them to avoid me from having a breakdown....

No, I am not having a breakdown
I'm still very low in my self esteem from Ben's package and I'm still a bit bitter with my love life But on the other hand, I wanna fight it. I wanna fight things now. it's gonna be a long hard fight... but I'm hopeful when it's all over, I'll be one happpy motherfucker

So, yes, despite the happy Hein you always see, I know EXACTLY how it feels to feel
pain
hopelessness
despair

It's part of life
So, please smile for me and just know that all of you people are not alone if you have issues... smile with me.. we'll fight this altogether :)