Isn't Life Funny?

For the first time, I hung out with Rayes today. Rayes is like my 'innocent' twin. Half filo half burmese and we both love each other's company on the net and all that. He came to one of my performances and I actually didn't think I was gonna be THIS attracted to him. It brought me to a huge ass surprise that I actually was so much attracted to him today. Maybe it was his wit or his cute smile but I had a blast today. But, it's a bit too weird to think what is it that makes me attracted to him. Maybe it's the fact that I feel real secure to be his friend or maybe I wanna get to know him more.

It's funnier cos Ali and I were having this talk where they said her cousin's gonna end up with an indian since she wasn't attracted to indians. And I was like 'does that mean I'll end up with an asian". Mind you, I DO love asian people but just not really that attracted to them on a 'sex/date' skills though I have to admit I am attracted to Cleo and Blaise superficially and Daniel for his ever-loving personality and cute charms. Something about filos I guess. So, just by thinking about what Ali said, it's gonna be pretty funny to find out what this attraction is. Is it a friendly appreciation of how cute ur friend looks? Or is it just this attraction slash lust that can last me longer and better as 'more than friends'.

On the other hand, I am still a bit not thinking about relationship at the moment and kinda enjoying what I have around me as opposed to checking my dating profile sites for a new attention everyday. Bless my cancellation for those two accounts.

Last night, I went to Churasco at Leidchardt. It was so nice to see Danny and Jen again since both of them are the ones I haven't seen in ages and as usual it was nice to hang out with Zhe, Ali and Alex as well. Matt was there as well, being himself as always lol.

On another funny story...... Rayes told me about this friend of mine who I kinda gave a lot of sexpectations to but I never did what I told and he was going through Rayes' friend list and saw me and he had a vent about me. Rayes wasn't big on telling me who it was but of course, thanx to Facebook I found out. It was just funny how he ranted about me when I was the one who should be ranting about him. We were supposed to meet that night but then he made sure if the "OTHER' guy wanted to come to his place or not, which made me feel like a 'next meat in line'. I'm sure he's a nice person but that doesn't mean he could NOT hurt my feelings. I know I have only agreed on a very superficial level (as in sexbuddies) and that was during my whorebag days. But, who wants to be put in line and chosen outta the blue by someone who should feel more privileged that I have agreed to do stuffs with him and I agreed to that upon his personality as opposed to his outer look. He was a can do and I am not really attracted to 35+ guys who are not as funky or that good looking. I don't mean to sound superficially arrogant but I deserve to have choices when it comes to one thing only. Sex! There are some people I'd love to get to know according to their personality and I'd date them even if I weren't attracted to them.

Hedgehog was not really my type but I was so attracted to him and that's what I mean by 'sometimes the cover doesn't really tell the whole story of the book'. But, for those I am willing to just have a browse read in stores and not buy the whole book, the glittery hard paperback gets my attention. Comprendez?

Music: Cut Copy - Feel the Love

Mood: happy