My First ever Just Group Xmas Party

Greed. It fucks us up and it's seen as one of those elements you can never control until it's leashed outta you. You can hide it later and you can change the level of it BUT only after it's come out.

I went to Networks exam review today and I was pretty happy that I did cos I kinda began to understand where I did wrong and all that crap. I was looking through my papers and there was this dude, an Indian student. Ok, I said indian cos indian students are pretty smart in IT subjects and as predicted, this guy was a top student. Well, one of them at least. I didn't know him but what he said later on assured me that he IS a good student. He was going through his paper and he asked the dude in charge for a mark. It was like 5 out of something and he was asking for ONE mark more. Now, it's OK to ask for marks but he was on 'distinction'. He had scored a distinction and increasing that one little mark would not actually make him get a high distinction. Now, how did that make me feel? FUCKED IN THE HEAD, of course. I was sitting there cussing the shit outta him in my head. Here I am trying to better myself from 40 out of 100 and there he was asking for ONE MORE MARK which would not actually change anything. Some people has the nerves.

I came out of that room and was thinking about him all the way to the bus stop. I was gonna go to work and I saw two buses across the street. One was 891 (which was the express bus) and the other one was 395, which stopped at random places. Now, when I got to the other end, I was too late to hop onto 891 and I could still make it in time for 395. But instead, I did not. Now, if I had done it I would've arrived at the city earlier than I actually did after ditching that 395. I should've just gone with the 395 and be a bit late. But, my GREED, just like that Indian new 'friend' of ours, got in the way. SO I had to start work at five.

I got pissed off with Leah at work today. I was asked to come close the shop so that she, along with Kirsty and Bernie could go to the Xmas party. Rumor has it that casuals were not allowed to go. BUT, Bernie was going and he is a casual too. No, I wasn't pissed off with him but I was just pissed off at Leah for being so unsubtle about things. Now, if she wasn't allowed to take more than one casual, it's ok and understandable to choose Bernie. I've been a bit outta the loop to be honest anyways. But, why would she make me close the shop and see them all leave. When I came to the shop, she was all like 'yeah I don't get it how casuals cannot make it bal bla bla'. Now I found that a bit fake as well..

Well, I couldn't hold it much longer and I wahed that to Bernie, who wasn't really good at 'cheering' people up. Don't get me wrong, I still love him but he just sucks at cheering things up. Leah came back to the shop and then asked me if I wanted to go. Now, that's when my honesty shone. I said yes I wanted to go since I've NEVER been to a Just Groups Xmas party during my three years of work. Plus, I told her that I was pissed off with her earlier. It actually made her feel better and made me feel better too cos I did promise her I wouldn't say bad things behind her back unneccesarily. So, I didn't.. cos I told her back everything..

The party was pretty good. Kirsty got drunk. Leah left early. Josie and Bernie left early. Winnie puked on the train. Michi was there and Anthony was there as well. Mama Mills, Samuel, Jenny, Kirsty and I then went to establishment and they had a salsa night for some reason. We were just salsaing the night away. Then, Kirsty and I came home and she slept over at my place. I was glad I could be there for her. She is one of my favorites anyways...

Speaking of which, I'll really miss Leah actually.. *Sigh*
I mean, she IS a friend of mine after all ...

On another note, I saw Danny(yes Austin's ex Danny) at the Xmas party. Now, why would he be SO friendly to me? Austin said he hates my guts. For whatever the case, I do not wish to know Austin more than a friend and Danny is just an acquaintance... but it amazes how people lie or fake things.. It's either Austin lied or Danny's being a fakefuck... ah well, both of them are weird anyways.

Music: Wet Wet Wet - Love Is All Around

Mood: partied out