When It Rains to Hein, ....

The insanity of Austin lives on! Well, last night, which was two nights ago, after the party (Tuesday night after I got back home and after Kirsty puked in my toilet and settled herself a spot on my bed), I talked to Austin online. I accidentally said yes to a hangout after my work forgetting about my directors' meeting.

Now, if you ask me, I think the directors' meeting is more important to me at the moment. So, I did tell him that I couldn't make it and he sent me back to back messages, which range from checking to accusations. Like, 'why is your msn on and off', 'have you sent the disc to me' or 'why did you say you would come'. Now, he's the one who said he wants a chilled thing going on between us. He said I'm the panicky one and the drama dude. Now, you tell me who the drama queen is here. I'd hate to work for things now. After two dates gone wrong, I'm not gonna lower myself for anyone anymore. So, I ended up not calling him anymore. It's quite annoying.

Work was work as usual. Now, I got another crisis. I'm FRIGGIN BROKE!!!! I'm gonna get paid ONLY next week and now I'll have to live through with REALLY little money in my bank for a week. It's quite scary to think of it but then again, I deserve this lesson taught.

Before work, I hung out with Clee and I have to say Clee and I could always pick up where we dropped off last time. I kinda stopped hanging out with him cos I thought he was pretty cool with the asian crew at the shift. Now, don't get me wrong.. I am not referring to every asians at the shift. Some of them are VERY friendly and I quite like them. But people like Charlie and Nghia .. they just hate me for no reason. I did NOT do anything to them and I don't really deserve any evils or whatever the fuck they have to throw at me. And yes it's about time I'm really sick of the shift. I was telling Clee all of this today and he started telling me how he actually thought he was the outsider. Now, when he said that, I felt so warm and kinda not alone anymore. I thought I kinda lost the old Clee I used to know for good. I've always seen a good side to him and always have respected him for who or what he really is. And I was just really happy he hasn't changed after three years of being friends. On and off hang out buddies but NEVER did both of us have any issues between us and for that, I really love him as one of my close buddies. Having lunch with him was pretty cool. It was a bit of a D & M and gay-thrashing. Not that we both don't accept gay guys... I think both of us had grown outta the loophole that would keep encircling both of our lives in this different world for people like us (guys who like guys). It was nice to know I'm not alone anymore. I do have other gay friends and all that but somehow it's nice to know one of your oldest best friend assuring you that he's still the same old guy that you used to know and have respected him for..... It's a good feeling....

Directors' meeting was awesome as usual. Jack and Robby were just fun to be around. Though it was fun being around them both, I have to say I always get tired and weary after every meeting. Things got worse when it rained HEAVILY on my way back to my house. Now, imagine some movie scenario where this guy broke up with his girl and walked home on his own in the rain, all wet and shivering with some bad cheesy sad music in the background. Ironically, my ipod had the sappiest songs playing and I was shivering with cold from the rain and I looked like a soaked rat. To make things more movie like, I came home to my place surrounded by two fire engines. There was no smoke though.. So, thankfully our unit was safe. I'm pretty sure it was some small smoke intruding the smoke alarm that kinda rang the fire department. Ah well, now I"m all warm and cozy..

I wonder what's gonna happen to anything..

Ooooo at work, a new guy was there today called Sam. He reminds me of Dave Loxton. Cute like him but with a british accent. He is a nice guy. Is he gay? At the moment, who cares? I ain't desperate for anyone.. plus, he's a traveller.... if things happen, I wouldn't wanna see another Simon-in-process... funwise, he's cute enough to embed him on my bedsheet :P

Music: Lifehouse - Broken

Mood: comfy