Tuesday, January 6, 2009

If I want Honesty, I'd have to Give It

yeah long time no write
i'm finally over with my shifts and all that.. so im' pretty happy about being able to rest
but i just got some horrible news about a friend of mine who passed away not long ago and i'm kinda traumatized as we speak
but i'l'l get better soon

yes i've been thinking about u too
the fact that i made a mistake by saying i was gonna change the way u look
don't let people tell u that by the way
they should just accept the beauty within u
even the fact that i responded to u kissing me.. it made me feel bad
cos i seriously think u're a VERY nice guy
and i am quite amazed by ur emails and i love them
i actually have never seen anyone who writes good mails like u did
n things just bounce off and on
but i gathered that i could do nothing more than friends with u
only cos, i'll be lying to myself and trying too hard
when i meet someone, i need to have that spark...
it wasn't there with u though i did enjoy the whole evening boozing with u in that irish pub
so yeah.. please don't think of this email as a ditch
i love it when guys are honest with me and i hate to keep waiting for what's actually happening
so i'm giving u the most honest thing
it's true.. we were only gonna get to know each other.. we haven't even talk of dates and all
but yeah.. i'm just telling u how i felt at the moment
cos i'd hate to lead u on
life is unpredictable and anything can happen
but it's also important that all of us try to enjoy our minutes as much as we can
so yeah, i'll see u sometime around when i'm not this busy...

but yeah, other than that, feel free to keep in touch


Heiny

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