Woogie's Gone :(

I knew nothing could be happy for a long period. I've always had this jinxy curse where whenever I feel sad, something happy would come up and vice versa. I've been happy with the finishing uni and working two jobs thing and I KNEW something would have to come up. It came up today.... two things..

One... my close friend, Wakapha, passed away on nye in Santika club in Thailand(link), where he was inside with his girfriend and his other friend. Three of them were burnt alive. I heard from my other friend that his corpse looks nothing like him and they could tell it's him only by DNA checking. His parents and sisters are in Thailand now and they're gonna cremate his body tomorrow at 9am at some monastery. Now, I heard that at 10am before I went to work. I had a huge cry then I went to work. I held it back in cos I think it's important to not set a bad atmostphere at work but as soon as everyone left and I was alone on my own in the back room, I cried. Why? Cos I haven't seen him in five years. I've never done anything to TRY to keep in touch with him. Not even emails. Only cos I know he'd be around when we, one day, become rich and grown up and have our own private jets and shit. Now, look what has happened. This incident is a kick in my face to actually spend time with the ones I love as much as I can and not forget them whilst they're still there. I really will miss him and I'm missing him now more than I have ever missed him before. I love u bro and I wish u're at a better place now.....

Now, I got all horrid and called my sister and my mom cos my mom is friends with his dad and that's what actually made me and him closer than most friends. We were a family friend. Now, mom made a joke about kids cos she was talking about how Dicky's got a kid now and she was joking about how she doesn't want grandkids from my sister since my sister was married to and had a divorce with a retard. But on the other hand, something she said, made me scared. She's like 'now I'm just waiting for ur kid'. Little does she know that it's gonna be surrogated with my gay boyfriend if only I could find one that would wanna be with me forever in my life. Fuck this shit... I think being singleton's much better.... but it makes me think, "MOM WAKE THE FUCK UP.. I LIKE PENIS"....

Now, I'm drinking beer with my flatmate Ryan and diggin everything that I could from the fridge. See, he spilt spoilt milk in our fridge and after cleaning it, I noticed we got two schnapps bottles and two wine bottles left in there.. I'll need them... to numb the pain and the silent scream...

I miss my friend........ it sucks that people die young

May you rest in peace Woogie (May 5th, 1982 - Jan 1st, 2009)


Music: The Carpenters - This Masquerade

Mood: really really sad