Acceptance and Forgiveness

Who am I kidding? I do not hate Aria. Yes, yet another nick name. I've grown some decency to not write about some other people on my blog with their names on it. I know Christian names are common but at times, you can tell who's who, like I only hang around with one "Aarti" and if I write "Aarti", then you'll sure know it's her. No, Aria is NOT Aarti. Aria and I met last year and we clicked instantly and I've learnt to love her so much. But then, I started seeing some flaws in her. Her fake personality and how she treated others in front of me. I guess I didn't like that cos I was one myself. I can be fake if I REALLY wanted to be. I grew more distant from her and I even kinda disliked her for a while cos she found new friends and didn't give a shit about me. But then, I realized.. I was jealous.... I think if I should be angry with her, Dicky should be angry with me too cos I never gave him time but just appeared at random times. So, when Aria came back into my life once again, I felt this unintentional content sense of pleasure. The reminiscing type of good feeling was in me outta nowhere. Long story short, I was happy she and I are in touch again and that happniess is large enough to make me forget any bad feelings I had on her last few weeks ago.

And speaking of which, I spoke to Wind today. He's going through a rough patch with his partner. It's a bit too personal to talk about his issues here but I wish him the best and the talk so far has been one of our closest. I disliked Wind for a while two months ago... I was ashamed to find out it was cos I have a crush on him still. but like I said, if I like someone, won't it be better to let go and just be there for them. I mean, Wind and I are good friends after all.. SO yeah, I wanna be there for him this time... cos I know he'll need me.. his true gay friend, me.