RANT OF THE DAY

Who would have thought that their lives are somewhat dependent on technology? My life, without a good internet connection for two days, had been HELL. But thanx to keeping myself busy, it wasn't that bad of a deal. I've just been doing lots of Med Revue and O Week revue stuffs... and today I had the best time with the med revue execs and sarina despite the fact that our script meeting was a bit of a failure. But then again, we were all there so it was a bit of a semi exec meeting plus Sarina; well, we never minded her being there. In fact, she can be so much of a contribution at times. I mean, as an ex producer... we do learn a lot of stuffs from her.

Now, there was something I forgot to mention which happened on Australia Day. Just on our way outta the park in Wollongong, I was holding the guitar and on the grass were two little girls, probably around the age of six or seven. Now it's so cute when kids are so ignorant of being conservative or scared... and the convo goes like

Kid: Do you know how to play guitar?
me: yep.
Kid: Can you play a song for us?
me: sure, what song?
Kid: Baa baa black sheep...

SO, there I was, 27 years of age, singing baa baa black sheep with a red guitar in a park in Wollongong in front of two six years old girls. Now, that to me, was impressive. They were actually REALLY listening. I just felt way better than performing on stage and I just have any assuring feelings that I do love kids. I didn't think this was gonna be in pics but good old Sabeena was actually taking a pic of this from far away and I managed to snatch it outta facebook.

Now, back to other stuffs that makes me sigh. First of all, it's my flatmate once again. The annoying one.. not the chilled back relax chick. Now that T's back, Ryan would have to move out but thanx to T's outstanding lack of plan managing (which is not a surprise at all), Ryan's still here and T's just hoboing around my room or Mickey's room. Now, I don't mind helping out but this is just plain stupidity and I do mind having her sleep in my room since she can be a bit of a nuisance at times. She just randomly comes in and uses my pc or just goes in my room randomly and all that. And it's just annoying. I'd be playing guitar in my room and singing and there she'd be lying next to me singing TUNES.. and not even lyrics... Well, what happened today was.. Ryan wanted to stay one week more... which, to me, is totally cool since he did say he wouldn't mind sleeping on the futon and I've been getting closer with Ryan and I kinda like him WAY MORE than T. Now, the deal here is, I asked Mickey and she was fine and I'm fine with him staying but when I asked T, she was a bit hesitant. Now, let's see.. she was the one who brought this boy into our house.. which I'm totally cool with.. in fact, like I said, I would prefer him than her cos he doesn't come into my room without knocking, use my pc without telling me nor try to talk to me ALL THE TIME. So, I'm guessing T is fully responsible for his entry. Now, he's asking to stay longer which both M and I agreed.. What is there to not agree with for T? She even chucked a 'why didn't he tell me' at me. This is the second time. Last time, Dicky (my best friend) told me stuffs and she was wondering why he didn't tell her. The fact is, the whole world does NOT revolve around you, T... get with the program and find yourself your own friends. Now, I don't mind if anyone's a friend of my friends.. but being a friend of my friends and paying me out in front of them is stupid.. telling me what's right or wrong regarding my relationship with my friends is also stupid... like

1. How I should have visited Lilian or Dicky.
2. How Jen, Ali and all are a bit immature and won't leave me be.
3. How my ex Simon is a bitch.

Seriously, none of these are her business. It's true that she CAN be right sometimes but then, as best friends go, I'll fight with Dicky or Ali or Jen whenevr I want to and she has NO RIGHTS to comment on that. I did have some issues on hanging out with Jen and Ali and the gang last few years ago, when we were all like 'we don't hang out much anymore' but we solved that.. THROUGH OURSELVES!!!! We did NOT need her opinion... I'm just SO HAPPY I'm moving out... I'm really sick of T, as you all can tell.

On another note, I was talking to Kirsty today and I've finally noticed that I am getting a bit too cynic about men in general. I feel like I have no need to find me a man though getting one would be nice. I have run out of patience and hopes of finding a man at this stage. I think my time will come soon but seriously, of all the guys I've met and I've been talking to, none of them impresses me much. I'm not being picky but calling someone my 'boyfriend' is a huge deal for me so I rather have someone I truly like on a mutual scale. And on the other hand, I think, some Australian men should just learn to accept the word 'endeavour'. I've noticed that most men here are just so spoilt with the way women treat them. I am not doing the whole 'women are right' shit. But seriously, this is what I've noticed.

1. Men goes for the prize but as soon as they get them, they lose interest. Now, it's not true in Australia from what I've noticed. Men trying to get into a relationship here, is like a fat kid trying to pick up a food off the floor, not getting up from the chair he's been sitting on for ages. Men, here, DO NOT TRY.

2. Men are such whingers, even when compared to women here. God... wah wah wah.. wah wah wah... boo hoo.. that's all I hear. And later you get this 'I am STRONG' speech which is wasted in seconds with the whole 'my friends are there for me to numb the pain by feeding me alcohol'.. now... what's the point.. if you think you're THAT smart, whey hurt a woman in the first place.

3. You have no idea how much I've tried. This makes me laugh since I believe that Australia is a very laid back country and a peaceful civilized 'good to stay in' country. So, if some men brings up any of their pasts, some of them are just deaths from a close relatives or just plain stupidity like 'I tried to kill myself when I was in high school'. GOD!!!

Of course, as you all know, my blog does not represent ALL individuals as stated and I AM SO SURE there are good men out there but from what I've seen, guys here don't do much for me. They represent the 'bros before hos' culture. They wear 'promiscuity' on their sleeves instead of their hearts. They get lonelier than a woman whose husband's in a war.

Now, I know I've been paying out straight men (since I did say women) in the previous paragraphs but let's see gay men.. Given the facts above happen in a different gender relationship, imagine two of a kind. That's when shit happens.. when two males meet. So, this is what a gay man ritual is.

1. Always likes to look at life with such words as 'down to earth', 'wine and dine', 'straight acting', 'sense of humor' and bullcrap. But do they mean it? Go to manhunt and I swear eighty percent of the profiles are looking for the same (in letters and words) but in all honesty, they're just looking for warmth from anyone until they find the one they truly like.

2. Sex is like breathing. NO matter how old you are.. how ugly you are.. how fat you are.. YOU ALWAYS GET SEX FROM GAY SITES.. Why? Cos, it's a release. It's not an act of passionate desire of two bodies invading each other. There are sixty percent of men no those sites who don't kiss while having sex and who don't believe in foreplay.

3. Culture Shock. Now, Mardi Gras has always been a huge symbolic culture signal for us gay men. We're damn proud and yes we represent. I went to one last two years ago and if you ask me, it's a hell pit of muslce trimmed or waxed clones without their tops on who are mostly on chemicals. Or just some sexually derived atmosphere driven by no care of whatsoever who or what you're doing or finding. And with that, we still ask for child adoption.. GIMME A BREAK, guys!!!!!

4. The 'race' theory. Now, when I was in Burma, I have a friend who said he doesn't like black people. I got SOOO MAD with him.. I was like 'why would you say such things? I have lots of black friends and I shouldn't even call them black.. cos how would I like it if someone calls me brownie' But the thing is... he's got one point right.. SOME (and dare I say SOME cos I'm sure there are really goood people out there regardless of their skin colors).. some people lives in the past.. they hold grudges.. history has shaped them to be what they are at the moment and they put themselves away from the so called enemies of the past. This also goes for some asians who are racist against marriage with white people. Give me a fucken break.. we're all intestines and organs if you cut us open. So, before you say people discriminate you, ask yourself if you're actually being open minded and not that conservative about yourself around them. WHen in Rome, do what the Romans do.. This goes out to all asians who try to be SO FUCKEN rude to me in Jayjays.. I know you can do that in Asia (I am an asian as well and I know that fact for sure) but seriously you are NOT IN ASIA. so suck it up!!.. My point is.. if you go around shouting how gay you are and how you keep saying how some people treat you like shit, you are giving out bad vibes. Just cos one straight guy thinks you're a nut case doesn't mean another straight guy's gonna think the same.. Yes, we get laughed at sometimes.. so do women too... so do some men even.. some even get punched...

5. Last thing... I do not like the usage of the word 'gay'. I'm sure I've mentioned it before. I use it only cos I wanna adapt to society and I do accept the majority usage of such terms around me and would blend in and accept myself using it. Deep inside, my opinion states that the word 'gay' just categorizes us into this small little group and at times we lose our individuality... take this for example

"Hey, I have a gay friend.. He's hein.. he's so funny"
"O really? OMG that means he must be fashionable, hot and cool"

now, check this out

"Hey, I have a friend called Hein.. he's so funny"
"really? that's pretty cool... You should let us meet him one day"

I'd love to be known as Hein, the hein guy and not Hein, the gay guy. Yes, I have 'gay' traits. I do like Britney Spears. I can sing high pitched. I love theatrical arts. I love colors. I love men. But can't a person have their own preferences?

Think about it....