Lesson Learnt

Five years ago, I ran away from a group of friends. It wasn't easy being a homosexual in Myanmar so I ran away from my friends. I would not be able to stand being judged by them or just hurting their feelings by telling them that I am a homosexual. So, I came to Sydney and since then, I have always concentrated on my new life. I did tell some of them, including Woogie about my homosexuality. Most of them were cool with it but since I've found new company here in Sydney, I didn't try my best to keep in touch with them knowing they will be there whenever I go back to Myanmar or some other countries to meet them up. Woogie passing away is like a slap in the face to live everyday like my last. I randomly talk to Woogie once in a while on msn but I didn't do anything other than that. I didn't wish him happy birthdays. I didn't email him... I guess it just kills me when he's actually gone for good. So, while I was drinking my ass off with Ryan and Luke last night, I made a promise to myself to never be careless with the ones I love.

And today, I went and met up with Tom Birch before he left. I prioritized him outta everyone cos he was gonna be leaving tomorrow. We went to Belgian Beer Cafe. It was an impromptu hang out for me and only eight people were there joined by Dave Field later. So, it felt pretty secure and cool. Birch, Lau, Nick G, Anu, Dave F, Sherman, Funke, Qwokzz and me. I somewhat felt like a man around them though I find it hard to talk most of the time since we don't really have a proper common conversational topic we can all cover. But then again, I felt really good I got to hang out with them since I do respect all of them in a way or another. No matter how small the quantity the amount of respect is from me to some of them, the respect is STILL there.. so , yes I did have a blast... I was happy I got to hang out with Birch before he leaves :)

Music: The Cardigans - Gordon's Garden Party

Mood: calm