Scattered Jar

Work's been pretty busy lately and I've reached this position where I'm initiating things to avoid any traffic in any tasks given to me, which means deciding for myself in order to get things done. In addition, I was asked to attend this three day training while working, which wasn't much of a great deal but it was quite hectic since the training was on the level ground floor and work was on forth. There were a few part of the training that I've missed because I was asked to be the phone bitch on the forth floor and since communication is a huge problem here, it's quite fun to be kept busy.

So, during this 'team building' training which was a bit of a time waster for me since doing three revues had pretty much skeptically taught me shit loads though I did go there to mingle with the new team members that we were gonna send out to the locations, the professor talked about this Rock Jar.

A Rock jar is just this jar and you're asked to put rocks in it. So, after putting some rocks, the owner realized there were some spaces left. So, he put in some pebbles and then because there were some spaces left, he put some sand, then water. So, the professor treated these obstacles as priorities. So, he asked us to write down our rocks, pebbles, sand and water in life. The funny thing was I couldn't think. I didn't know what I have prioritized in life. I thought family was first but it came to the point where I would actually spend more time intentionally than I do with my family. So, I was guessing they would both be rocks. Then, I would have 'love' as a pebble but two days ago, I rushed out of work and refused to care about spending time with my grandad. So, I came to the point where I accepted that my jar contents are actually scattered. Imagine putting water in, then sand then rock. Some of them would be floating around and alike these obstacles, things are floating for me. How?

First of all, Red had totally disappointed me by not making any effort to communicate with me, be it gtalk or phone and I have also been a bit shunned to start the conversation. So, I don't know what's going on with that.
Then, we have my work which is totally making me happy. Love the work, love the internet, love the people.
Then, this morning I received a letter from immigration which stated that I'll either get the PR really fast (as a temp visa, which is kinda new and weird) or I won't hear from them until 2012.

So, I'm floating in space with this feeling of not knowing what's going on around me. For once, I do admit I am having a huge severe migraine.

I somehow killed one of those bugs this morning by messaging Red. I know I am supposed to not initiate the communication but somehow there WAS a typhoon in Philippine and there is one coming up this weekend. So, it's only normal and Hein of me to send him an 'are you ok' email. I don't know.. I'll take my chances.. I just want to do anything that would make me happy. If I listened to my friend and not make a move on him, I'll never know what will happen. Plus, people can change and also, people talk. What if this was another case of chinese whisper...

Fuck it, I'm gonna do what I want