SNAP!

When I was directing revue last year, i ended up playing good cop. I wasn't that tough of a person and I was always the smiley one. I have always wished I was as strong as my other two directors-in-crime haha but I ended up being the softee mother until one day. I snapped and had a big wah at the cast members and the rest of the day was silence.

Today, during the training, I snapped. I didn't get angry or get impatient but I got a bit disappointed. After four presentations which I have prepared until 2am the night before, I was assured that the enumerators understood the importance of our assessment.

Today, someone shouted while the whole room was covered with question. He shouted something like "Who cares what the question asks just keep asking what you normally do". HE DOES have a point BUT the thing was.... it has been wrong all along. Because people don't read the field guide (the kit to do the questionnaires), they had no idea which is right or wrong and they ended up doing wrong things. So, yeah, I got annoyed and I snapped at them and gave them this smackdown speech. As predicted, the room went silent and I didn't have that much of talkers to me.

I guess I sometimes unintentionally expect too much out of people. But even if I hadn't, I guess it was important to let them know the importance of the work we're all doing.

I'm tired.
I miss Craig.
and I need sleep.
Peace