Hein with a backspace (a blog for those I've offended)

So, for once I did press backspace for one of my blog entries. Only cos I did come to realization that it wasn't worth the fight. Someone got offended with one of my blog entries and to be honest since I gave time to myself to think about it, it wasn't much of her fault. Cos I would too. The thing was she wasn't angry with what I wrote. She was pissed off with the fact that I seem to be so friendly in front of her but snapped so bad at her in my blog entry. My explanation to that is... well, I do like her as a friend. And I think it's a waste of time and energy and most importantly a waste of friendship to be all grudgy and angry at what she said to me. And to be fair, she has a point. However, I would love to state to anyone who reads my blog THAT it's my nature to rant out some complaints about my friends at times. As honest as I can be, I do not hold grudges afterwards. If you piss me off during that time or space, I'll write it down on my blog but that does not mean I hate you. If I hate you, you would not even be on my blog since it's a waste of time. So, I'm gonna state again that she had every right to be annoyed or pissed off with me and if she's reading this right now, this is what I have to say.

Dear you know who you are,

I guess I've learnt that our friendship is far more important than me trying to explain to you that I have no wrong in doing what I did. First of all, I should've used code names. Second, I did not mean that much about you. Yes, I was annoyed by you. But I was only annoyed cos you could be better than that. I've known you for so long... long enough to know that wasn't your true nature. Just because you have annoyed me that night does not mean I am annoyed at you now. So, it would totally be worthless if you would hold a grudge against me in the future. I have learnt my lesson about this and I'll try to warn my friends about my nature in the future. And just so you know, as I have mentioned above, just because I ranted about you does not mean I hate you. You are much more better of a person to be even disliked. I know you did not want any apologies from me but you deserve to know my story for all this. I wouldn't be wasting my time typing this out if you were some worthless person to not have a consideration for. We might not have the same type of personality but I have to say you ARE my friend after all. And I do value friends so this is me stating publicly that I am sorry once again. Not sorry for what I did but sorry that it hurt you and in the future, I just wanna let you know that I do NOT hate you and whichever way I've acted with you is NOT fake. I do still care about you and love you as a friend. Don't we all rant? Think about it and as you've said, hope our next encounter go well.

Hein

P.S. this blog goes out to EVERYONE I have insulted in my blogs earlier. I do NOT hate you but at times when and if you annoyed me on that day I blogged about you, I might write it down. My blog's supposed to be honest anyways. I have erased the part I wrote about her only cos it's quite politically wrong (that I agree.. especially when I put names of more than two people and assume incorrectly). So yes I do apologize for thinking that, my dear one. :)

P.P.S. I am not convinced that the person co-incidentally read my blog which she hasn't read for so long.. So, I might be wrong here but if there's anyone who kinda fired her up to read my entry, can I just say "go fucking get a life and stop being the centre of drama attention? You make me so sick in the guts... now that she and i are awkward... does that make you happy? does that make your life extremely better? FUck off and have a think, low class fucktard!"