Blogs Fiction?

The feel of rush. Deep heartbeats. Blocked ears. You're in your own little world. And BAM you let it out.. let it all out. You compliment yourself for doing a good job. You give the 'helper' a good wink. Yes, it's sometimes good to pull off while sniffing amyl. For me, it just reminds me of the last time I've used it with someone and that feeling and the smell that reminds me is just priceless. I think amyl sniffing is bad but only if you're addicted to it.

Do you know how it feels like when you know that the Gossip Girl new episode and the new beginnning of the part two of season three of Heroes are back online but you can't view them. Now, I'm talking to Vogue and she's telling me about this new Pussycat Dolls music video "BottlePop" which I desperately wanted to watch as well.

Speaking of Vogue, it's true when I first met her, I used to think she was a bitch but as I could recall, that feeling was also for good friends of mine. Like Betty, I thought she was a prissy princess. Souljah-Girl, who I thought was a bitch and Noteface, who I thought was a proud chick who's too good to be my friend and look where they are. I seriously think there's a good potential that Vogue could be next. Even if it wasn't for a best-friendship, I'm sure she'll be of good company. Given that I'm gonna be in the same house with one of her best friends soon, it's so much better that I'm gonna see more of her and get to know her better.

I had a talk about the book I've been reading with my friends today. It's some blog about this callgirl in London, Belle du Jour or something. I've been enjoying her book the past few days and I'll have to say I'd love to meet her in person and just talk about things in life since half of her personality reminds me of myself and the other half reminds me of someone I've always wanted to be. I don't think how good is someone should be judged upon what they do. I used to hate it whenever Parkboy (one of my very favorite dates) ask me questions like 'so what does he do' or 'what do you do?'. I love Parkboy but it also makes me wonder if his opinions on others are gonna be affected by what they do for a living. It's true nobody wants a lazy ass to be their friends or boyfriends, unless they're in a situation where they meet them by chance and get to know each other. But it's just ridiculous to just keep ASKING THAT QUESTION. Ok, back to where I was. So, this Belle, it makes me wonder how she looks like. From what the book said, she's the most famous call girl. And no matter how call girls have heavy make ups or have sex, I sure as hell know those expensive ones look like mannequins and much more cleaner than even some of those so called 'normal' people. What if she was some ugly chick who just knows how to write smooth. Too smooth that they actually use Billie Piper to portray her in the TV series version of it. Billie Piper is not tres pretty but she does look good. I am not a pessimistic person but I do have a friend who has a sexblog. She's not a size 10 or a size 6. She does have a pretty face though I do admit. There's this posture that she has when she walks and it's one of those that you can tell how they're gonna look like when they grow up old. Personalitywise, I admire. Intelligence, I respect. Looks, could do better. I mean... yes at times, we're born different but if Kirstie Alley and Oprah Winfrey could lose so much weight in a year, anyone can overcome this disease. I can too. In fact, I still think I'm big for my liking. So, when I have friends like BlogBest, it makes me wonder. It's been a while since I last read her blog to be honest though I have to admit it's a good read.. just like Belle du Jour's.

Music: Koop - Whenever There Is You