I wasn't home this early but I just had to make sure this entry falls under Friday the 13th. Today was a long day. I'm so tired now I could cry. But then again, it was a good day to be looked at.Market city ( the place I work in) toilets have these scent sensors installed. So, whenever someone takes a poop, after they flush down the toilet and if the smell still lingers on, the thing sprays some freshener into the air. I went to the toilet today and the first thing it did was spray some freshener. Now, that was insulting. Of all the people, it had to spray a cologne fanatic such as myself. To cherry top this moment, I let out an unintentional uncontrollable burp and the urinal started flushing by itself. Weird toilets, I tell ya. It's like they wanna play a prank on me.
It was a Friday and every Friday, at work, we try to get as many small notes (money) as we could. Normally, I'd have a bag with me but today, since I came directly from the gym, the only bag I had with me was a gym bag. The gym bag is just too big to be carrying around to banks. I know the bank was only one block walk away from my work but still, it was pretty annoying to be carrying this huge ass bag with me to the bank. So, I was bagless and Zizzle didn't have any bags on her either. Then, I started rummaging the counter for any possible bag and guess what I found. The 'lost' bag from TamponGirl. One day ago, some customer left a bag in our shop and when I opened it, there were four tampons, one card of pills, a mirror and a lipstick in it. So, today, I put all of those out and went to the bank with the bag. I'm very grateful to TamponGirl, for saving my life today.
Now, it would be so unHein of me to say I've been checked out by a few gay guys who come into the shop but at the same time, I am not dumb enough to not notice. Two guys did. One even chat me up and asked if I were going out tonight. Well, it's true that I was being friendly like I normally am at work but then again, it's just weird how I get looks from them. Good ones, this time round. My esteem was booming til I tried on this shirt Emokid made for me. My workmate, Emokid, designs shirts and I bought this one from him of two guys kissing. Last time I bought a cock being choked on a white t shirt from him and it was a medium sized and it fit well. Today, the two guys kissing is a medium but it looks SO small on me and I put that on with the blue jeans shorts. I look quite fat to be honest. So, yeah downhill the self esteem plunge. Talk about raining on my parade, eh?
Skipping work was NOT fun. It was raining and it was hell busy at basement when I got there. Customers were just rude. They seem rich enough to buy so much drinks and enjoy this eagles cover band, but some of them have the lowest attitude when it comes to 'manners'. Greed, Stubbornness or just fucked in the head. You name it, they've mastered them all. So, it wasn't fun to go around apologizing at people for things like forgetting to give them their desserts, asking for bills too early (only cos the cashier was gonna close early) or just plain asking for food they would wanna order. Now, in this eagles cover band, there was this one guy. I couldn't stop looking at him. I just kept looking at him and whenever I do, my heart skipped a beat. It's plain stupid and it's all high school crush again but seriously, why now? Why am I feeling like this? I seriously just want him to know how much I like watching him but whenever he looked my way, I looked away but from a corner, I'd be peeping into his corner. I'm sure he didn't see me; I mean, if you're on stage spotlit, it's hard to see people down in the audience.
Bus ride home was depressing since it was raining outside. I thought about a lot of things. About my financial situation, stability, life, status and family. I thought about 'fate' too. Me doing things I'm doing; are they all meant to be. Even littlest things like a girl sitting next to me on the bus; was that fate? Was she meant to sit there? Was I meant to catch rain. Sometimes, I think that some force is watching all of us go through life.
I was walking home soaked in the rain and I wonder "if God was watching a tv series called "Hein", I would love this moment in the rain to be the last scene of a season before it stops airing, and like 'Desperate Housewives', everything could start from five years later". So, be it God or any force, if you guys are watching me now, time for this reality show to take a break and come back in five years...
Music: Adele - To Make You Feel My Love
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