Life’s pretty unfair. I’ve given up on getting BooMan’s attention and I’ve been trying to win him back, which hasn’t been pretty much useful. Before you know it, everything around me reminds me of him, his gmail emails before he started his ignoring spree, his facebook pic and even his presence on gtalk. I’ve pretty much ignored the pain I’ve been feeling cos I was in the wrong and I gotta things right for us to grow again.
I’ve ignored the fact that he didn’t want me to come to KL, I’ve been working on my visa. I’ve even found myself someone who would pay for my KL ticket but I failed to get someone to give me their place for me to stay over when I get to KL. To make things worse, since my passport expiry date’s pretty much less than six months around the time of my stay in KL, I got rejected for my visa.
I’m pretty much in a very depressive mood at the moment. Been stupid, been told I’m stupid and I’ve pretty up screwed up something good that I had and nothing would be good enough to change it. Forget mine or BooMan’s efforts, luck doesn’t even seem to be on my side.
I can’t really stand not getting emails from him anymore. To make things worse, the mixing engineer worked on the song I wrote for BooMan. I was invited to a wedding of a friend. I was also reminded about how awesome an airport can be when two lovers re-unite from oversea.
I guess the best thing for me to do right now is to let fate work its course and since working has been pretty much bitchy lately, it’s only fair that I try to get rid of every media sources that reminds me of BooMan. I do still love him and that will never ever change. Maybe we’re meant to be and maybe we’re not but until I’m ready to be better to be strong again, I don’t really dare to go to places I’ve been once with him around me.
I’ve ignored the fact that he didn’t want me to come to KL, I’ve been working on my visa. I’ve even found myself someone who would pay for my KL ticket but I failed to get someone to give me their place for me to stay over when I get to KL. To make things worse, since my passport expiry date’s pretty much less than six months around the time of my stay in KL, I got rejected for my visa.
I’m pretty much in a very depressive mood at the moment. Been stupid, been told I’m stupid and I’ve pretty up screwed up something good that I had and nothing would be good enough to change it. Forget mine or BooMan’s efforts, luck doesn’t even seem to be on my side.
I can’t really stand not getting emails from him anymore. To make things worse, the mixing engineer worked on the song I wrote for BooMan. I was invited to a wedding of a friend. I was also reminded about how awesome an airport can be when two lovers re-unite from oversea.
I guess the best thing for me to do right now is to let fate work its course and since working has been pretty much bitchy lately, it’s only fair that I try to get rid of every media sources that reminds me of BooMan. I do still love him and that will never ever change. Maybe we’re meant to be and maybe we’re not but until I’m ready to be better to be strong again, I don’t really dare to go to places I’ve been once with him around me.
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