I don't care

People keeps preaching but do they really practice at all? And before I blame it on any others, I rather blame myself. So, whenever a friend is down or out, I would encourage them to think about the present, not to let the past screw them up and not to worry that much about the future. That’s something Buddhism taught us as well.

This month of November just totally sees me more in touch with the present and how I’ve given up hopes on anything I’ve built up for my future. Pretty much in the same mannerism as all cried out or out of tears, I’m pretty much out of hopes and all hoped out for my future.

Will I get the PR to Australia? I don’t care. Will I ever have a proper relationship with a good man? I don’t care. Will I ever get outta here? I don’t care. All I know is I’ve been losing ground on what’s actually happening around me and I’m not gonna let my hopes and plans for the future screw me up anymore.

So, prioritizationwise, I’m gonna be ripping my planner in pieces from now on and come what may…. I’m happy and I don’t care about anything or anyone who’s not around me or who doesn’t want to be around me. I’ve given up and I’ve lost any glow of optimistic thoughts about my future in Australia.

Listening to: Owl City – Fireflies