Sometimes, the present bores us. You sit around and wait for things to happen or you just pretty much wonder how you get here so far. Time passes and somehow you lost track of the purpose of your initial thoughts. The domino effect such the process ‘thinking’ causes is pretty amazing, considering the length of varieties it has inside the strip of thoughts.
As much as I like to plan, I’ve given up today. So, yesterday I planned to stop using facebook and any media sources to avoid BooMan. Why need I do that? He’s not a bad guy. He’s just someone who’s not my boyfriend anymore. I kinda saw hope between us although I have to add I was pretty much destroyed by the past. Like I’ve mentioned before, I’m going through the funeral phase. Damage is done, I hurt a guy and I’ve learnt my lessons. What to do?
I guess I just want to focus on other important things for now.
So, speaking of the present, I was pretty amazed at how my kids were doing given I couldn’t go to the dance lesson yesterday. Well, it was more of my miserable emotions playing up and I couldn’t really see myself bearing kids looking up to me to come up with more Justin Bieber moves to make themselves look cool. I don’t wanna let them down so I kinda avoided the choreo class yesterday. They did well today. Not only did the group know their dance moves but they were making so much of their own moves. I want to boost their chances of thinking they have a ‘say’ in this process. I want them to feel proud of their moves. So, I started agreeing to what they want and kinda fixed what needed to be fixed. I felt bad for moving QuikEMart to Group 3, which I was pretty sure he wasn’t happy with. But I told him I moved him because Group 3 needed some smiles in the group and he happened to have the best smile. Oh brother, I gotta teach him how to smile now. Why, kiddo, why?
It was nice to catch up with BigSis. As usual she held onto my hand and she was being honest about things around me. I never asked for her views. Maybe it might contradict mine. It might contradict BooMan’s. However, I was pleased she was pleased to hear me say I’ve wronged this time. What can a man do after his flaws? He can try not to repeat it again I guess. As for dreams coming true, I rely on time and place at the moment. It’s true I will never find anyone like BooMan. If I do, I’ll be lucky but I guess I’m not in any hurry at the moment. And yeah, he deserves to have a good time in KL or in Sydney. I do love him and I wish him well.
My day ended with one of the best weddings I’ve been through. Looking at RyRy and Pooh marry was joy to me. I used to remember late night calls I used to make to RyRy when he said he was gonna break up with Pooh cos he was going to be abroad. I’m not really sure if they remembered anyways and I don’t really expect that but a hug and a thank you from both of them made me smile. I’d normally think why does good things happen to other people and not me but this time around, I couldn’t stop smiling at the huge achievement I’ve made by playing a small role between them. Cute couple, I’m proud of them and I wish them both a happy prosperous marriage life.
Haha, my marriage life? Let’s just say it’s not something I should think about at the moment.
As much as I like to plan, I’ve given up today. So, yesterday I planned to stop using facebook and any media sources to avoid BooMan. Why need I do that? He’s not a bad guy. He’s just someone who’s not my boyfriend anymore. I kinda saw hope between us although I have to add I was pretty much destroyed by the past. Like I’ve mentioned before, I’m going through the funeral phase. Damage is done, I hurt a guy and I’ve learnt my lessons. What to do?
I guess I just want to focus on other important things for now.
So, speaking of the present, I was pretty amazed at how my kids were doing given I couldn’t go to the dance lesson yesterday. Well, it was more of my miserable emotions playing up and I couldn’t really see myself bearing kids looking up to me to come up with more Justin Bieber moves to make themselves look cool. I don’t wanna let them down so I kinda avoided the choreo class yesterday. They did well today. Not only did the group know their dance moves but they were making so much of their own moves. I want to boost their chances of thinking they have a ‘say’ in this process. I want them to feel proud of their moves. So, I started agreeing to what they want and kinda fixed what needed to be fixed. I felt bad for moving QuikEMart to Group 3, which I was pretty sure he wasn’t happy with. But I told him I moved him because Group 3 needed some smiles in the group and he happened to have the best smile. Oh brother, I gotta teach him how to smile now. Why, kiddo, why?
It was nice to catch up with BigSis. As usual she held onto my hand and she was being honest about things around me. I never asked for her views. Maybe it might contradict mine. It might contradict BooMan’s. However, I was pleased she was pleased to hear me say I’ve wronged this time. What can a man do after his flaws? He can try not to repeat it again I guess. As for dreams coming true, I rely on time and place at the moment. It’s true I will never find anyone like BooMan. If I do, I’ll be lucky but I guess I’m not in any hurry at the moment. And yeah, he deserves to have a good time in KL or in Sydney. I do love him and I wish him well.
My day ended with one of the best weddings I’ve been through. Looking at RyRy and Pooh marry was joy to me. I used to remember late night calls I used to make to RyRy when he said he was gonna break up with Pooh cos he was going to be abroad. I’m not really sure if they remembered anyways and I don’t really expect that but a hug and a thank you from both of them made me smile. I’d normally think why does good things happen to other people and not me but this time around, I couldn’t stop smiling at the huge achievement I’ve made by playing a small role between them. Cute couple, I’m proud of them and I wish them both a happy prosperous marriage life.
Haha, my marriage life? Let’s just say it’s not something I should think about at the moment.
Listening to: Sugar Ray – Closer
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