Dear dad,
My album’s finally done and I gave my grandparents the master copy. My grandma came up to my room and she hugged me and cried. She said the song I wrote for you was so good and she cried and thanked me for not forgetting you. Then, she asked me if I hate you.
Now, let me get this clear for once and for all. I love you, dad. That’s the reason I have been bitter about you leaving me early. I have never seen myself to grow up without a dad and you, being someone who should have been my mentor and someone to guide me the ways of life, have always been an important figure I didn’t wanna lose. I guess you did put a lot of lives down after you left us. I had to make sure I keep those around me happy. I couldn’t cry in your funeral and I’ve stuck to that attitude that I forgot how it feels like to actually feel sadness. I hated you so much only because I love you and I didn’t want you to leave us.
I have stopped going to your grave until last two weeks ago when Mom and Sis came back from Thailand. When I saw them, it made me think of you and the fact that they’re peaceful with my grandparents, I so wish you were here to see it. I remember how you used to hate how your wife doesn’t really get along with your parents. You should see them now. They’re friendlier than ever.
Dad, despite the fact that you cannot be there for me now, there are a lot of things you’ve taught me and things I would not have believed in unless you were around. I am grateful for these. Because of you, I believe in love. I’m with a good man now. I know how weird it is whenever I think of how you’ll react to me being with another person of the same gender as me but I know despite a slow process, you’ll love Craig. We’re trying to last as much as we can and I’m trying to work out everything I could to stay true to him and to last as much as I can with him. Because of you, I love kids and want to be a young dad. I guess I want to be just like you, a good dad.
I know you’ve left me way before you actually should and I forgive you. I’m also sorry I hated you for a while. I know it’s weird wishing you a happy new year but I would like to have your guidance as I’ve always craved (wherever you are) this year as well.
I love you dad.. I mean it!
H.
My album’s finally done and I gave my grandparents the master copy. My grandma came up to my room and she hugged me and cried. She said the song I wrote for you was so good and she cried and thanked me for not forgetting you. Then, she asked me if I hate you.
Now, let me get this clear for once and for all. I love you, dad. That’s the reason I have been bitter about you leaving me early. I have never seen myself to grow up without a dad and you, being someone who should have been my mentor and someone to guide me the ways of life, have always been an important figure I didn’t wanna lose. I guess you did put a lot of lives down after you left us. I had to make sure I keep those around me happy. I couldn’t cry in your funeral and I’ve stuck to that attitude that I forgot how it feels like to actually feel sadness. I hated you so much only because I love you and I didn’t want you to leave us.
I have stopped going to your grave until last two weeks ago when Mom and Sis came back from Thailand. When I saw them, it made me think of you and the fact that they’re peaceful with my grandparents, I so wish you were here to see it. I remember how you used to hate how your wife doesn’t really get along with your parents. You should see them now. They’re friendlier than ever.
Dad, despite the fact that you cannot be there for me now, there are a lot of things you’ve taught me and things I would not have believed in unless you were around. I am grateful for these. Because of you, I believe in love. I’m with a good man now. I know how weird it is whenever I think of how you’ll react to me being with another person of the same gender as me but I know despite a slow process, you’ll love Craig. We’re trying to last as much as we can and I’m trying to work out everything I could to stay true to him and to last as much as I can with him. Because of you, I love kids and want to be a young dad. I guess I want to be just like you, a good dad.
I know you’ve left me way before you actually should and I forgive you. I’m also sorry I hated you for a while. I know it’s weird wishing you a happy new year but I would like to have your guidance as I’ve always craved (wherever you are) this year as well.
I love you dad.. I mean it!
H.
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