I’ll be honest. I haven’t been pretty much healthy mentally. I think letting go of my ex was harder than it seems. Sometimes, when I’m about to let go and think I can move on, something is always there to remind me of him. So, despite the two strikes I’ve hurt him with, I’m pretty much scarred everywhere in any ways possible and guess what. The whole stubborn side of me still loves him. Healthy much?
So, mom and sis finally came back to Burma. It’s a nice feeling to see them again and even better to see them at peace with grandma and my aunt. The whole family fued in the past was just too much to take and at some point, I would get worried about what was gonna happen when they cross paths again in the future. Today was the day and there was no sign of conflicts.
I came back tired from work, as usual, thinking of you-know-who. Then, my grand-dad asked mom to help with the raffle tickets. My aunt always buy all these cheap-o-last-season stuffs from LA and whenever she comes back, she would put raffle numbers on them and make everyone or every guest who comes to the event draw raffle tickets FOC. Oh, I forgot to mention they’re actually here for the “event”, where we invite monks to preach the house and we do good stuffs and all that. We call it “Ka htein” in Burmese language but I like to treat this as a Christmas, given every member of my family’s back around me.
Helping out with the tickets eased my mind. From what normally is a flight up the stairs to watch movies after work, I ended up sitting on the floor in the living room helping my mom out and having some family time. All these times, I know why I’ve been so down and been pretty much dependent on my ex. I was in need of a family life. It’s been a while and being around my mom and sis once again made me feel a bit better at heart. It kinda made me feel occupied and today, I was feeling a bit better than the few nights before.
Mom and sis slept in my room and having a mom and a sister who could be like best friends towards you is awesome. Mom’s a big fan of buying big when it comes to food and watching her unpack lots of food, which could fill up a candy store for a week, was fun and talking about sex with my sis was just fucked up, yet funny. Both mom and I are not convinced that sis has a good sex life. So, I ended up showing her some of my ‘straight’ porn while I munched on seaweed sheets from mom’s food store NOT watching with her. I love them and they kinda save my life. I’ve never felt this complete in my life since the day I’ve lost my ex.
So, mom and sis finally came back to Burma. It’s a nice feeling to see them again and even better to see them at peace with grandma and my aunt. The whole family fued in the past was just too much to take and at some point, I would get worried about what was gonna happen when they cross paths again in the future. Today was the day and there was no sign of conflicts.
I came back tired from work, as usual, thinking of you-know-who. Then, my grand-dad asked mom to help with the raffle tickets. My aunt always buy all these cheap-o-last-season stuffs from LA and whenever she comes back, she would put raffle numbers on them and make everyone or every guest who comes to the event draw raffle tickets FOC. Oh, I forgot to mention they’re actually here for the “event”, where we invite monks to preach the house and we do good stuffs and all that. We call it “Ka htein” in Burmese language but I like to treat this as a Christmas, given every member of my family’s back around me.
Helping out with the tickets eased my mind. From what normally is a flight up the stairs to watch movies after work, I ended up sitting on the floor in the living room helping my mom out and having some family time. All these times, I know why I’ve been so down and been pretty much dependent on my ex. I was in need of a family life. It’s been a while and being around my mom and sis once again made me feel a bit better at heart. It kinda made me feel occupied and today, I was feeling a bit better than the few nights before.
Mom and sis slept in my room and having a mom and a sister who could be like best friends towards you is awesome. Mom’s a big fan of buying big when it comes to food and watching her unpack lots of food, which could fill up a candy store for a week, was fun and talking about sex with my sis was just fucked up, yet funny. Both mom and I are not convinced that sis has a good sex life. So, I ended up showing her some of my ‘straight’ porn while I munched on seaweed sheets from mom’s food store NOT watching with her. I love them and they kinda save my life. I’ve never felt this complete in my life since the day I’ve lost my ex.
Listening to: Steps – Chain reaction
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