Today might have the worst day of my life since here I am trying to study and everything but I end up spending one and a half hours reading the text book and I fell asleep.The best part is the fact that I've started doing grocery shopping again and I'm now at Ali's place since staying in my room's gonna fuck me up.
The worst thing is the fact that I messaged hedgehog and it was all good til I asked him to hang out with me after my exams, to which he didn't respond. So I sent him the longest message asking him if he wanted me to stop or go on cos I'd be more than happy to be ok with it if he wants to stop. It's fine I'm not a big fan of doing things that others are not mutually in agreement to doing. But it pisses me off when I'm not informed. So I sent this longest message that I've ever written to anyone saying I still believe that he's a nice guy and I would not change my judgement on him but I just wanna know if I should go on or stop. I guess him not replying back to it means that I have to stop. It's cool I guess. But I flipped two hours later. I was just so upset I went to gaydar and deleted all my pics there and on manhunt too. I erased every pics of me and I put blanks in my profile info. Of course, just like a little princess that I've always been, I cried. I cried and smoked in the park next to alison road.
It was all good when Ali came and picked me up and we went to KFC and for some reason, this cute NZ guy at the counter(a customer) randomly talked to me. He was so cute and it was really good conversing with a cute stranger who was half drunk and who likes hot chips. Ali thinks he's REALLY drunk. He just kept telling me how he likes his hot cheps... and how he wants them real hot.. hot cheps that hot cheps this.. all I wished was for him not to shut up cos he's cute with his little NZ accent and his cheeky smile. It was good...
On the other hand, Kyle from the gym cafe discounted 95 cents off this ham sandwich and the funny thing was when the old Greek guy was serving me not knowing I had bought ham from Kyle an hour before. He was like 'Guess who's here'. And Kyle and I gave each other weird looks going 'umm duh we've met already'. It was cute and awkward since it seemed like the Greek guy was trying to set us up or Kyle must've said some things about me to him. It's fuckin obvious that I've been perving slash flirting with him ever since I started to decide on taking coffee drinks everytime I go to gym. On my way out, I saw Kyle in his little princess throne folding paper and I told him not to bludge. Miss Thang was all 'WHAT I'M FOLDING PAPERS' bla bla bla.. he's cute but I'm guessing he's got a bf and he must've gone to Bali with him.
I'm just glad I let go of this trip I was in.. web-dating services. I'm sure I'm worth better. This is yet another thing I never thought I could've done. I guess it hurts a lot when the pain inside of me acumulates to a certain degree..
By all means, all thanx goes to Ben and every men who's hurt me..
cos if they didn't, I would've never had the chance to burn and learn from it :)
Music: Michelle Branch - Something To Sleep To
Mood: renewed
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