All In My Head (Kosheen)

If there's one thing I don't understand, it's 'break'. Why do we need them? Break as in 'relationship break'. I was just listening to Ben Folds Five's song, "song for the dumped" and he was singing about how this chick wants a break and all that. I'm like "just break up already, man. it's not worth it". No I am not bitter but I just DO NOT believe in breaks. What good is a break for? I think a break is a big fat excuse to play around, get what you want and kinda get to know how much your partner's absence means a lot to you. Well, if you need to fuck someone to know how important your partner is, why not just have a relationship at all? I hate the fact that relationships are taken into accounts too lightly these days. Back in our days, divorce was like "OMG no she didn't" and now it's more of like "get the best lawyers". I've seen my parents fight but never had they uttered the word 'divorce'. I do want my sister to divorce her husband at the moment but that's different. Physical abuse is unbearable in a relationship. But going back to this 'break'. I say "FUCK BREAKS... the only time I see the word 'break' in a realtionship is when they 'break up'."

On another epic disappointing news, you know you're fat when your asian family friends smile at you, hug you and go 'OMG you've become so fat'. Now, that's something you HAVE to take into accounts cos most asians don't lie about obesity. You see, in asian culture, it's good to be well fed. Maybe that's why some Chinese people smile and applaud whenever someone burps at a dinner. Maybe that's why asian family always prepare big meals. And thus having more to eat for tomorrow, the word 'leftovers' kinda lingers around our asian community LOL. So, when they say things like 'you're fat', it's normally and usually a compliment and kinda synonymous to 'Hey, you've been well fed.. I'm glad you're eating well'. But still, as weight conscious as I am, I refuse to take that as a compliment and kinda see that as a warning. The intepretation goes something like

Term: "You've become fat"
Asian people: "I am well fed"
non-Asian people: "How rude!!"
prissy airheads: "OMG pregnancy test!!"
Hein: "Oh shit! I need another diet!!!"

So yes, that's what I see it as and nothing can stop me from wanting to be thin and bootiful. No, that wasn't a spelling mistake. More of a bootilicious reference. So, I'm gonna be doing this hibernated diet plan, not letting people know. Cos when people know of my diet, they always slam me right in the head, which feels good cos I feel cared for but at the same time, it swerves and my rods and cones in my head into thinking 'what if they're right'. Now I have to be more stubborn and determined.. lol

P.S. I'm running outta song titles for my blog entries. I've started this trend of putting song titles as my blog entry titles. I guess Kosheen's All In my Head will do for today LOL.

P.P.S. On another 'bad news'ness, my internet connection is still low and I blame it on my housemate who is really selfish enough to youtube every TV series she loves to watch as opposed to downloading them and sharing them with others. And if her disk drive doesn't work, she may as well have it fixed. URGHH

Music: Blondie - Good Boys

Mood: if the word 'boredom' was sex, i'd be a slut (not that I'm not one already)