Hein, the Painter

The dude, Michaelangelo, who had to paint church's ceiling.... I'm sure one of his plans in life was not to become someone who rebels gravity to create a picturesque. He might have wanted to be a rockstar or a McDonald's employee, but nope, life made him a painter who has to risk breaking his back whenever he paints.

I opened up to Craig about me yesterday. Only because I was at my worst. I told him I've got only him. I know I'm capable of being strong and happy most of the times, but at times, I just wish I was half as selfish as my family is. I have been trying my best to make sure everything is ok, keeping myself happy as well as them. I didn't even tell anyone about my boyfriend. I didn't even bother to make them listen to my stories.

I've been overjoyed with Craig for the past few months. He's someone who have made me see happiness and hopes in life once again. I could be myself around him and anything I do, he can deal with.

Yesterday, I lost control. This was because of my sister's issue and I was hoping the family would, for once, get together to fight this. But NO! I have to be the stupid god damn messenger. So, at first, my chat with Craig was good but then later it just turned horribly wrong to the point where he just left me.

Then, I guess, just as Michaelangelo, I can't be something I want to be in life and it's not my choice. I'm good at making others happier or curing their bad days but no one can stand my issues. I guess I'll just have to keep painting.