Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Turning Point : Honesty

If there was one person who's played one of the most important parts during my turning point from pathless to maturity in my life, it must be Boss. She and I argue a lot but I love it.

There was an induction meeting yesterday at work because we, as part of an organization that a lot of our staffs mistake them as two separate orgs, are actually working with them now as opposed to under them. Well, we're still under them but just that before all of this, we used to be under another org for admin and other stuffs. So, it was like an introduction meeting, which was quite clear and blunt and brief. That was until most of the national staffs started asking questions. Of all of them, Aunty asked the stupidest questions in my opinion.

It's true this lady is somewhat like my aunty but things she does never fail to piss me off. So, the issues she brought up were stupid things like "I feel discriminated between international and national staffs since the head of security treat the international staffs better. When I come early in the morning nobody helped me out with the door keys whereas if I am not early at work, they would put air freshener and switch the aircon on for internash staffs." Seriously, if the door is closed, ask for the damn key, woman!!!! Then, she was being the spokesperson for the IT guy. The IT guy had an issue. He is working our project and he gets a normal salary for that but in case he gets told to do the 'org we're under' 's website, he would get paid extra. But this is not for every month and this is only for those months that he's asked. He assumes he'll get monthly salary for this despite the workload being small or big. And the ugly truth is the fact that he's been living in the office free of charge because he has issues with his house. Seriously that's suable. And, Aunty, the greatest epitome of dumbassness, had to agree with him and go against the main org people. It drove me crazy!!!

Then, Boss and I had lunch and I whinged about it. She told me "why didn't you say anything then". I was like "It's not polite". Then, she went "Don't say them to me then because you seem to be not working it out." Very true. I shouldn't keep it all up in the meeting and just whinge about it later. Then, I told her I do not want to be hated.

Now, that's my problem.

I've noticed that I'm the worst when it comes to asking for opinions. "Do you like blue or red?" and I'd come up with "I could see what you like about red but I like blue better". That's always been me all along. Growing up with grandparents and a bunch of diplomats, it's only fair that I can be a bit of an originality lacker at times.

I guess I'm getting sick of it though.
So like it or not, it's about time I find out what I REALLY like and what I do NOT like at all.
So yeah, this time round, honesty is my next weapon. Given Boss might not be staying around longer, I'd have to take my honesty to another level. I guess upgrading to a better version package, huh? :)

The meeting afterwards, Aunty was asked to translate this long paragraph that our new Boss, "ToyBoss" (cos her nickname resembles a toy that kids play), and she missed out the REAL kick in that motivational speech. ToyBoss assured if it was true. She pointed at me and asked if her translation was correct. I was put in the spot but I guess this was the chance for me to show my honesty. So, I said "You put me in the spot but I can summarize for you". So, I did a translation that actually highlights what she wants to say. I turned towards Aunty and I said "Just helping, Aunty" followed by a smirk and a deep satisfaction that I was being honest about how my translation was better.

Well, I think it was better.. You got a problem? Eat dirt!!!

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